Ackkk!!! I really dunno how I am feeling right now. Damn perplexed over everything that’s been going on around me. u__u;; This is one of those days, when my hormones are like crazy yoyo monkeys. Aiyerh! I kept getting pissed off over some small matter. >_<;;

Like yesterday, when someone asked me to do a bit of conference online about their doujinshi project, I abruptly ignored their invitation because I felt that this has nothing to do with me and that they’re interfering with my time. Instead of doing them a favour, I went on playing Ragnarok when I could have been giving them a bit of a helping hand!!! I was acting really selfish!!! (sorry to the one who’s involved. You guys know who you are)

And I was also pissed off with one of my party members in Ragnarok (who is also a classmate of mine) because I felt he was sort of ignoring me and treated me as if I was none of his business... @__@;; What the hell was I thinking!!! He’s always like that actually, but yesterday I was somehow pissed off by his action. ~___~;; Good thing he reminded me about my “so-called imbalanced hormones day”. If not, I wouldn’t have noticed why I was acting so strange that time. ~__~;; But in the end, we’re both okay with that. He kept on trying to make me feel myself again by triggering some sort of our “in” jokes!!!! (Thanx dude!) Ah, and I wanna say thanx to him for helping me level up!!! Now, I’m left with another 50% more of job levels before I can become an assassin~~~!!!!! Huhuhu!!!

This is why, I hated myself... Sometimes I have this sort of double-personality. Not that like Hatsuharu in Furuba or Yugi or that DNAngel character... (I still have my conciseness) I can be very nice and warm to people and I can also changed suddenly into a meanie heartless selfish brat in just a split second. This often occurs during my adolescence. Currently I’m trying to brush off this stupid mood swing double personality attitude. Dammit...

Huh... More reason to be upset… I’m one of the 85,000 unlucky candidates who were selected to involve ourself in the National Service thing for THREE MONTHS!!!! ~__~;; 85,000 from about 400,000 kids who were born in 1986 will be sent for the National Service programmed starting February 16 next year. Haiyerh!! This means, no more seeing u guys in DA or my Site.

Which reminds me, (this pisses me off even more)... Somehow my site at dark-reality.org was taken over by a stupid Spanish chatter. @__@;; I hope Joss (my host) knows what’s happening... >