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sumhow i already expect my final work to be rejected due to the reason of too much procrastinatism, lack of workmanship, not much understanding of the whole project and i wasn't serious ebough in doing the work. Yep!! This means i have to re-do my final project...
*sigh*
what frustrates me is that I didn't sleep just to finish this assigment, but in the end it doesn't even matter coz it's rejected.... I should've listen to what my mom and lecturer's opinion. But I didn't.. *shrug* Typical me...

While I was working with the project, I bruised my finger, I had backpains, I didn't sleep (except occassionally 10 minutes or 20 minutes doze), didn't consume my meal properly, and I buggered my younger brothers to help me cut the model boards. XD Poor fellar had to sleep at 1:30 am during school night because of me and my rejected submission. Well, I am not complaining coz I know this is just the typical life of an architecture student, but what I am trying to say is I wasted all of this for a rejected work... *sigh*

By the way, the lecturer said my designs aren't creative enough. :ohmygod: And all this time I thought I were... Too much confidence? Maybe... Arrogant? Yeah...Stubbornness... ignoring opinions from others..? Definitely!!Truth hurts, a bit. ^^; I don't mind what she wants to say about me, I accept it with consideration... After all, during this whole time most of my works are being rejected again and again and again by them... this proves i am not too creative when it comes to organizing form and space in architecture design.:surrender:
i HAVE to change my attitude...>_<

owh, and my parents just gave me lecture on time management. I guess i lack on this too...

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Somehow I came to think wether I am suited in the architectural world. Well, it's not exactly ME who wants to take up archi but I followed my father's suggestion of taking up a more professional course... I consider of taking up graphics (or art and design) but he said the job range for art graduates is few compared to architecture graduates. Hahahaha...i find architecture as quite rigid... thought of changing course next semester but somehow i kinda feel attached to my studio-mates now... @_@ It's kinda sad to leave the life with them. They're really a bunch of interesting kids... ^^
Maybe I should push myself a bit more and see if I could survive...

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I'm going to follow Xan to GEMPAK's office tomorrow~~~~~ I invited Sky to tag along~ myaaaaaahahahaha!!
i need to refreshen myself up....i am down, but i don't want to feel to blublu about it. ^^;