KELLY CLARKSON LYRICS

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
YOU WERE A PART OF ME
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

SWALLOW ME AND SPIT ME OUT
For hating you, I blame myself
SEEING YOU IT KILLS ME NOW
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

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Juz now, on MSN.. i just noticed he kept on playing this song. And I remembered he told me once that this is the song he currently fave, the most. He said this song is him. He said it represents his feeling. It's him... I checked out the lyric and hear the song. The music and lyrics are very contradicting indeed. The lyrics are gloomy and yet the music is very hype and upbeat as if there's nothing wrong with the situation... Anyway, after reading and trying to translate the lyric.. I got hurt.

I'm not sure if it's because of my unstable emotion state right now...

But I do feel a penknife has just bruised my heart...

The words bold are what makes me think more about what it's trying to say. Those in CAPS are what makes me cry... Shit! >.< I'm such a crybaby. It just came running down my eyes. I can't hold back. It hurts...

I always thought of myself as the one who brings happiness to him, and at the end makes him feel worse. "SWALLOW ME AND SPIT ME OUT" <-- this tells it... I take him in, and I throw him out. Once.. I've even decided to end the relationship between us during the time when he was supposed to sit for his matriculation final exam.

Cruel aren't I?
inconsiderate..
I took him in.. Gave him all the happiness he could feel.. and then spit him out of my life just like that.

evil...

"For hating you, I blame myself
SEEING YOU IT KILLS ME NOW"

I used to feel awkward seeing him.. and as if seeing him makes me feel miserable. This quote is actually how i used to feel about him back when I was VERY VERY inconsiderate about him. Once we were going out together, and at the end of the day, he who usually talks alot and joke alot when quiet suddenly the whole day. Why? Coz I was ignoring him.. and it's killing me to see him at that time.

I don't know..

I still feel vulnerable...






Is he hating me?

He said he won't...
But I feel he does...

coz I constantly am giving him love and hate at the same time...





what am I?
drug?? >3>















*sigh*



help me... hariz...dearest... T___T