Warning /!\ : DO NOT read if you don't believe in long term love relationship of young students. DO NOT read if you're allergic to mooshy-mooshy softy-wofty lovey-dovey stuff. DO NOT read if you don't believe in love. Very long rambling about nothing concerning you who don't believe.

*smirk*

7th January 2004, marked the first outing together between me and my dearest Ariz. And also the day when both of us decided to go a bit higher level from just friends, just schoolmate, just classmates, just an RO playmate. We decided to try it out. Well, at least for me, I was the one trying it out. "trying".. as in, just try. Nothing deep. I wasn't so serious in having a relationship with anyone back then. The year 2004. The year when I just finished my SPM exams, and I though I'd like to have fun! >v< Get a guy, have some fun together, do things togeher, make him mine, and when I got bored or things doesn't go out ok between us, I'd ask to back out and end it. For the sake of killing the time and doing some thing together with some one. Just for FUN!!

Quite a childish bitchy attitude, isn't it? That was me. Back then... But him, well, he's more into seeing a relationship shared between a guy and a girl especially the special relationships, as a long term connection. He doesn't want to play around. What's the point of wasting your emotion, love and care if you're not serious about it.. When one day it'll withered away because you're not showering it with what you're supposed to give. He's VERY serious abouth the relationship, even when I asked to back out, he still wants to keep it going.
THIS is what makes me still hold on to him up untill this whole time...
His persistance...
His effort in giving out whatever he can...
His affection...
His guidance and advices...

He always told me, that maintaining a relationship isn't easy especially when both of the partners aren't playing their role. It's either one of them who plays it, or better still, both, to keep it going. If things doesn't go so well, both of the partner shouldn't be egoistic and hold their pride up high. At least, either one of them should play the role of a prideless egoless person.
Considering and trying to understands others' feeling is most improtant!




Anyway, that's the prologue. Here's the intro. ^^



Yesterday, I asked dad wether I can go out today. Dad wanted to go and service the car today, but I guess the plan couldn't be carried out since I was so persistent into going out today. He asked me what's the special occasion of going out this time? *__* I was reluctant to answer the truth, but mom was nearby and she answered the booby trap question. "Die nak pi celebrate anniversary ngan Ariz". DANG!! Dad went silent... I was... bumped! *_* And then, he asked me another tricky question.
"Are you really serious with him? Are you confident that you'll end up with him?"
without much thought, I answered.. "YES"
And then I was feeling bumped deeper... O____O;; Why'd he asked such question?
Then I remembered! When he heard about the relationship between me and Ariz for the first time from my mom, he was really doubtful that I would last long enought with Ariz. Well, so to speak, my mom and dad knwos the "easily-bored-attitude: of mine and that I was still young to have a serious relationship that would end up more than a year. He was really being pesimistic about it. But heck, now I proved him wrong that I could stay with Ariz more than that duration! Yes...

and guess what? This may sound riddiculous to some of you out there, but I want this relationship to end up officially legal by law. I want to be his one and only wife. Yes, I want to marry him. Haha! Fancy that? Just 2 years being together, I'm so confident about where it'll end up. Who cares what you guys want to say out there. I WANT it to be this way. HE WANTS it to be this way. BOTH of us do...
We will do whatever we can to make this happen. Coming up to our differences and supporting each other whenever we can.
so there!







Okay....
So we went out today! >v< Yayh!! We went to One Utama, Damansara without having a plan of what to do actually. Just getting there and do whatever together would be just fine. The main event is, the exchange of gift. ^^;

Speaking of gift.... damn! I went to Sunway Pyramid with Shezneechan on New Year's day to get him the present. I was browsing around for some cool sleek sling-bag, but nothing suits the taste perfectly. It's either too "gelabah" or too "dorky"... There's one or two which catched my eye, but I don't think he'd really like it. So I ditched the main plan to get him a sling bag and aim for the Nike store to look for whatever suits him. And there it was!!! Nike Basketball Dri Fit T-Shirt!!! ^______^ *starry eye* The colours, the fabric, the simple printed design on the front and back. It really suits him! So I just picked that one up, (while browsing a few others but at the end I find the first one I laid my eye on as the main target) and picked the size [M] without looking at the inner tag. (I just browsed for the price) And guess what? When I got back home to take out the price on the tag, I notice it... The T-Shirt is actually a NIKE KIDS T-SHIRT!! And it stated there that the size [M] was for kids with height between 140cm - 150cm. @___@;; Dammit!! That's MY size. NOT HIS!!!! ARGHHGGKL JKLNJG HJFVFYJYBKIJNM!!!! I planned to go back to Sunway Pyramid the next morning to change the shirt for a larger size. I still have the receipt and I didn't pull out the tag yet! But come to think of it.. It's Nike Kids range sized t-shirt. Even if it's XL size (which I think would be hard to find) I don't think it'll fit him. He usually wears Nike Men's [M] size... His height is around 178cm.. so.. I assume Nike Kids [XL] would turn out for height range of 160cm-170cm... Still, doesn't fit him... Plus, I had a little unsatisfaction with him that night which resulted into me no mood to go through the hassle of going back to Sunway Pyramid just to try it out.

So what did I got for him for the anniversary? Well... socks! Yes.. socks. AND1 socks, I bought in Sunway the same day, and 3 pairs of Adidas socks I bought from my trip to Singapore a few weeks ago. and, one Singapore T-Shirt... and, well, Mariah Carey MP3 songs packed up in one CD. *ROFL* To me, it's worthless... But deep down I know he doesn't mind much. ;__; But I do feel awkward and tak best to give him such junks. *sigh*

Back to One Utama, we ate lunch at Kenny Rogers before going for the movies and that's when I opened the gift he gave me. Guess what? He bought me a Nike Tennis long sleeve Dri Fit T-shirt with the word "LOVING YOU" printed in gold at the bottom right of the t-shirt. ;__; It's... It's.... GORGEOUS!!!!! And... he bought me a wallet!! I always wanted to get myself a new wallet and there! He gave it to me! Black and red Planet Ocean's wallet. I.. never thought he'd have the money to get it for me. WUWUWUWUWUWUWUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! I was sooo touched, and ashamed of the gift I was giving him, and subconciously.. I cried. There and there.. I shed tears.... T____T I can't help it... I was sooo happy, and yet, felt soo embaresed of what I'm giving him. At that time, I asked him NOT to open the present while I was there and I purposely wrapped it in double wrapping the night before. It's very tedious to get it unwrap. So.. Good! He didn't open it in front of me and decided to unwrap it at home.
*saved*

yah.. like sheznee said. I know he doesn't mind about the gift... as long as I'm just there with him to celebrate, it's fine with him. But.. I still feel uneasy and guilty about it. T______T

He told me it's ok...
I was relieved..
^^;;;;;;;;

well, at least there's a card in there which I made it by myself with peotry written by me. I'm not so good in poetry, but at least it's something which come straight from my heart and it's priceless! Made by me, just for him, not for sale!!
Hahahahahahahahha!!







Happy anniversary my dear! I will always love you, and forever I am yours.

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p/s: thx for the wish! Sheznee!! >v< *glomps*