Currently listening to Dragon Ash. Which leads to.. reminiscing. I used to LOVE Dragon Ash back in high school days...

=A= I'm reminiscing my old 'juvenile' days. Those days when Photoshop and Internet Explorer was a new joyous toy for me. Those days when mIRC didn't even exist and my chatting platform was the JavaChat webchat applet where chatting with fellow Malaysians are very rare. Those days when I first known about HTML and Geocities free web hosting. Those days when I dig out tutorials just to educate myself to produce something from photoshop and geocities. Those days when socializing with online buddies are such a pleasent meeting. Those days.. Those days... compared to my days now, is really filled with colours and excitement. Everything was new. I wanted to try it ALL out not knowing about boredness and procrastination. The ultimate satisfaction at that time was seeing something I created with my hard work and time comes to reality. Nothing else matters. It was FUN!

But now.. haha!
Such different dimension.

For me to finish a stupid simple CG (quick cell-shading style) also took me over a month. Not that I'm putting my whole time and effort to produce a superb voila wonderful subarashi artwork with intricate detailings and shades. It's just due to mere procrastination. Same thing goes to my current project now. Building up fazuu.net. I'm thinking up so many so called wonderful things to put but at the end satu hapak bulu ketiak pun tadak. Why? Motivation factor dah tadak. I really miss my old old days. T___T When, I'm not so old and not so tired when staring at the computer screen for more than 10 hours.

Bebel banyak pun tadak guna la kan?
So kene la motivate diri sendiri gak walau ape jua cara sekalipun if you REALLY want to get it done. I guess sometimes tak serius sbb the "REALLY"-ness to get it done tak cukup memberangsangkan to generate my braincells and energy-electrons. Haha.. damn la why am i typing blog so rojak-like? O_O; Ack. Awal-awal punye la ayat BI puitis. hahaha.. dah malas dah.

Speaking of Rojak... For those fellow Malaysians who're checking out my Blog, have u ever read about Awek Aspuri from Ujang by Sarah? OwO I used to idolize her and envy her opportunity to publish her works in local magazine during her school days. That was my DREAM. She got it. I haven't. Anyway, check out her 24 page comic for the " 24 Comic Challenge and Sci-Fi/Fantasy Festival". Heard about the event? So damn la clashed with CF... Wanted to check it out. ="+ Read her comics here. Reading her 24 page comic, touched my heart. She's very proud of herself. She knows who she is, and doesn't give a damn of what other people might think as long as what she's doing doesn't do any harm to anyone. :3
I idolize her.
Such a good artist/servant of god...

My dad mentioned last night after dinner about an Indonesian artist (the visual art artist, not the menyanyi-nyanyi artist bleargh) who has such a well balance life. His duniawi as well as akhirat. He draws, he paints, he's also a successful photographer. On the side note, he's also a religious book publisher. He writes stuff about Islam. My dad says he specialises in Sufi. Being the ignorant me, I don't even really know the exact definition about Sufi. O_O; *knocks head* Up untill recently, I never even bother to check out about other stuff rather than duniawi... sangat senang lupa diri. hahaha... ="= Ikut mood. Sometimes I do remind myself about the later world of akhirat and all. But most of the time, I don't. =___=
Typical.
No motivation factor?
haha.. this is not the motivation case.
It's more like, sendiri yang tak kesah nak tau.

I am membebeling.
XD

Dunno la... lately i've stumbled a lot on bloggers who posts about their career life and religious-matter. Quite frequently lately. Even my dad talks of such thing now. Hurm. I should start giving a hard spank on my soul and liven up. Ape la mau down-down pulak. When the going gets tough, u should toughen up and get going to your target destination. Why, lying around won't get u anywhere. Right?

so..
ape tunggu lagi?
:3