I just got the news that they're not using my artwork for this year's cover. I wonder why did she asked me to do it but then at the end she's using her own artwork as the cover instead. The cover really does looks better (waayy better) than what I have designed (last minutely) but I think it's quite rude to just dump mine. Ok.. Promo poster. Nice. But making it monochrome when I had coloured it? What's the point of me colouring?? Might as well asked me to send the LINEART only!! duh... As I thought so. They think it's not good enough. I'm not good enough for them. They didn't appreciate what I did. Hurm.. They.. I can't use the word they. I think it's her. The rest of the crew.. I don't know. No grudge, yet.

I did TWO versions of the cover. The first one I previewed in my gallery, it's not done 100% yet. I haven't composed it.. She rejected it and asked me to do another. So I did. The initial one was used as the website layout, so ok at least it's being used. I produced another (right on the period of time for my assignment submission date) and also it's not 100% finished but I followed her pointers of the composition style. I asked to put in some other artworks at the tilted photo-frame looking box, just as she wanted. but no.. it's been rejected too it seems. I'm agitated seeing it has been rejected and she didn't even say anything about it to me... What's wrong with it? Can't you at least TELL???? Why? Am I irritating you for joining another group without telling you...? I thought we're free to contribute anywhere we want. Even some other members does..... I'm contributing and helping them more than what I did to you, is that the problem..? fine.

ok.. that's it.
I guess I won't be contributing anymore useless crap for them if this is how they treat me. Asked me to do something for the cover and ended up it being dumped for something less prominent. So what if my artwork aren't that good..? I'm not popular among the fans as you guys are, is that it? They never rejected anything from any other members before. The previous cover was so-so but why me??? This proves I'm not good enough for them. If this is what she wants (getting rid of whatever I'm submitting), then she's really getting rid of me. For good. After all, I'm nothing but a black scapegoat sesat in a flock of fluffy sheep.

i don't belong there.
that's final.
no more hypocrisy.
i'm sick of it.

They're still my friends though... just friends. Nothing nakama-tachi-ish brotherly-sisterly-ish.