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sumhow i already expect my final work to be rejected due to the reason of too much procrastinatism, lack of workmanship, not much understanding of the whole project and i wasn't serious ebough in doing the work. Yep!! This means i have to re-do my final project...
*sigh*
what frustrates me is that I didn't sleep just to finish this assigment, but in the end it doesn't even matter coz it's rejected.... I should've listen to what my mom and lecturer's opinion. But I didn't.. *shrug* Typical me...

While I was working with the project, I bruised my finger, I had backpains, I didn't sleep (except occassionally 10 minutes or 20 minutes doze), didn't consume my meal properly, and I buggered my younger brothers to help me cut the model boards. XD Poor fellar had to sleep at 1:30 am during school night because of me and my rejected submission. Well, I am not complaining coz I know this is just the typical life of an architecture student, but what I am trying to say is I wasted all of this for a rejected work... *sigh*

By the way, the lecturer said my designs aren't creative enough. :ohmygod: And all this time I thought I were... Too much confidence? Maybe... Arrogant? Yeah...Stubbornness... ignoring opinions from others..? Definitely!!Truth hurts, a bit. ^^; I don't mind what she wants to say about me, I accept it with consideration... After all, during this whole time most of my works are being rejected again and again and again by them... this proves i am not too creative when it comes to organizing form and space in architecture design.:surrender:
i HAVE to change my attitude...>_<

owh, and my parents just gave me lecture on time management. I guess i lack on this too...

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Somehow I came to think wether I am suited in the architectural world. Well, it's not exactly ME who wants to take up archi but I followed my father's suggestion of taking up a more professional course... I consider of taking up graphics (or art and design) but he said the job range for art graduates is few compared to architecture graduates. Hahahaha...i find architecture as quite rigid... thought of changing course next semester but somehow i kinda feel attached to my studio-mates now... @_@ It's kinda sad to leave the life with them. They're really a bunch of interesting kids... ^^
Maybe I should push myself a bit more and see if I could survive...

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I'm going to follow Xan to GEMPAK's office tomorrow~~~~~ I invited Sky to tag along~ myaaaaaahahahaha!!
i need to refreshen myself up....i am down, but i don't want to feel to blublu about it. ^^;

Ehehehe...

I procrastinate too much lately. ^^; *sweat*

Supposed to be finishing my final ARC125 (Basic Design) subject, the Space Modulator, but was procrastinating it eversince the project started last three weeks. What progress have I done? Well, I just cut a few pieces of model boards... sprayed it, and keep on re-spraying it because the colors aren't correct. The sad thing is, I only done 5% of the whole work, and the submission is THIS MONDAY!!! (two more days) erk!! I really don't feel like doing Deisgn works... =_=; Adoi...

*slap self*

I can't keep on feeling blublu about myself. Kidchan sumhow gave me motivation for me to keep on moving. Thanx Kidd... You're a great friend. Not only Kidd, but also a lot of gratitude to Xan, Lily, Rudz and Sky. Thanx for the on going support. Ermm... I'll give it my best for this final project. TT___TT

My old old old old old old childhood friend whom I have lost contact with just re-contact me back a few days back!!!!! Kwaaaaa~~!! I was unable to contact her for a while due to the reason that she had lost her cellphone... She used to live near my house (where her parents live) but now she moved out already. That's another reason why I haven't been able to contact her. I dunno where she is at the moment!! Now that she contacted me again, I felt soooooo relieved!!! I was worried about her.. wondering if she ever opened her heart to go and study again.. wondering if she ever wants to go back and see her parents again.. wondering if she ever wants to talk to me again.. *sigh* A lot had changed since we were last treat each other as best friends. ^^; We're still friends, but kinda drifted apart in our own world.

I missed the old times when we used to play together...
I missed the old times when we used to share secrets to each other...
I missed the old times when we used to comfort each other...
I missed everything... ;__; *sob sob*

Bleargh~
stop being emotional...
*sniff*

Oh yeah, there's a problem with my web at
ayez . dark-reality . org
I think my host had clost her hosting... So she leaves my with no chance but to find another host who's willing to take me in as a parasite. XD Gwehehehe!! Good thing Xaph is willing to host me. My new site will be hosted under tragic-quill.net... Will inform the grand re-opening of Lazydragon.. kekeke!! dun wait, it'll take a while............. *sweat*

Mwaaaccckkkssss~~~~~

must start work!!
Yosh!!!!

i miss my friends... ;__;

Kwahahahahahahahaha!!!
My bro just downloaded a few of the songs from my fave japanese rappers/rockers/whutever their genre is... i can't seem to define their music genre coz they are mixing and doing hybrid out of every thing in their songs. o__o;; who am i talking about?

• DRAGON ASH
• Kick The Can Crew
• Rip Slyme
• FLOW (but Flow is more like punk-rockish... reminds me a lot of blink 182 and simple plan)

I wonder if any of you ever heard of any of these band members I mentioned above. I am so much in craze of their music~~!!! Currently digging into Kick The Can Crew and Rip Slyme! Yayayaya~~~ Torrrrriiiiicccccooooooo~~~!!! I saw their video in MTV once, and it was quite a blast of laughter. Funny!!! Ppl snowboarding and snowrafting all over the place.. throwing snowballs.. can't quite remember since i saw it long ago but i like the video lotz! and Rip Slyme's FUNKASTIC video is hillarious!! toilet cleaners dressed in white tux. cleaning here and there..... making a mess at the same time. ^^ Ku-nyaaaaa~~~~~~~~!!addicted to their music now~~!!

wish i could get the original CDs instead of downloading them illegellay on the net. but hard to find nyu... i dun have credit card to purchase online summore. *sigh*

Owh!!!I wanna say sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry x999999 to Lockjaw coz I lost the MIYAVI burned CD she gave me last year. o__o;; Miyavi............................ ackkkkKkkkkK!!!! I dunno where I left it, maybe sumwhere in the studio while i was doing my presentation for my design. but i can't seem to FIND IT!!!! *sob sob*i lost it.......... GOMEN NASAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!! LJ...

ayez is currently high on music

^^;

*sigh*

I dunno why, but lately I've been off the mood and being very edgy... Finals will start next month (october 4th) and the first paper would be ARC 121 which is HISTORY OF ARCHITECTURE!!!! ~__~;; Dammit... how I hate history. Too make things worst, last Tuesday was the submission day for our history assignments. I did [The Colosseum and Roman Sports Architecture], and guess what? I didn't state the conclusion directly in the assignment, and the lecturer said the highest mark I could get is 6 over 20... o__o;; Okay... You made me hate history even more by making so many rules out of it. >_<; Heck, my fault probabbly for not separating each and every part of the assignment directly. The intro, the body, the conclusion.. I just chucked all things in one and made it look somewhat like an essay. I THOUGHT history was supposed to be sumthing like that... an essay!! So the conclusion is supposed to be the FINAL paragraph!!!!!! I dunno if the lecturer accept this or not.. most of my coursemate concludes it in a seperate page. *heck*
I was being so stupidly stubborn... *bites*

Most of the things/assignments/projects I do, there's always mistakes in it... Stupid mistakes which I could correct it earlier but was just being so ignorant to do so. Stupid!! And because of my ignorance and stupidity, my marks are just plain average and on the edge to FAIL. BWahahahahaha!!! >"<
Baka...

Currently doing my final Design project for the semester... It's called the Space Modulator. ="= Whatdaheck...

I'm having trouble with my ARC124 subject... Freehand drawing + Drafting... For freehand, I tend to do everything FREELY~~ Lalalalala~~!! Supposed to be guidelines such as the eye level view point, vanishing point, frames, structures... Well, being plain me I tend to do everything by heart. XD Drawing everything as long as the final outcome satisfies me. But marks would be give to the guidelines instead of the final product.. so.. haha!! Less marks for me.. Drafting on the other hand is pure BOREDOM!!!!! Coz of the lecturer... Mr Leong~! .__. I don't get the thing he taught me... Perspective drawing, isometric shadow projection... these are the two projects which I suspend because I dunno how to do!! o__o;; I asked him for guidance, but it doesn't seem to help coz I have problem understanding his BM + English language. XD It's kinda cute listening to his "rojak" lecture and the slang, but when it comes to explaining it's quite hard... =__=;;

Heck!
semester is about to come to an end... only 1 month ++... Yay~~ But.. but... i have to go thru exams first.. and the portfolio REVIEW!!! O_O;;
*hoping for strength and really hope I don't have to repeat the semester for FAILING design*
*also hope I dun have to repeat any other subject*

*prays*

T__T

I have to start working on my doujin work... dateline is coming! Right Xan?