ErkKkKk........!!
Tulang sakit.. Lepas main basketball ngan Ariz ari sabtu tuh, tetibe rase sakit tulang especially kat betis ngan buntut. Wuhhh... T_T Jalan cam nenek tua sekarang. Sakit sebab x leh nak straightkan kaki. Myuhhh... Ayah ajak pi terawih, x gi sebab.. sakit tulang!!!!!

Hurmm.. bosan siut malam nih. cehhhh!!
Esok balik seremban. raye!
Balik sini balik sabtu. Hurh.. Study ntuk exam tak lagi nih. @wO;; *swt swt*
GILA~~~ BAHAGIA STUDY LEAVE BERFOYA-FOYA!! NGAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

owh by the way, i just watched that Gorila MMU clip Ariz sent me yesterday. Betul la Ariz, Amyn yg dalam clip tuh. Dah tanye die tadik.. die buat clip tu waktu die Alpha year lagi. Lame dah.. @wO;; *swt swt* Gile takdek kijer bebudak creative nih.. huhuhuu!!

Internet connection ish slow today.. Haiyaahh! Suddenly can't open GAIA Online page. @wO;;; *swt swt* Why arr..? Weekend dah tiba, server jadik busy sebab dikeremuni abundance of "people with no life"? Harharharrr~~

Yah.. >v<;


Owh.. Just had a conversation on the phone with that stupid senpai of mine. *sheesh* Cam kene PMS plak mamat tuh. Macam ade bende tak puas hati.. Kebosanan tahap dewa-dewi-raja-laut la tuh. Peh.. Siap boleh jadik super sarcastic + cynical ngan aku lagi. OoOoohhhHh~~!! Takpeeee... takpeee..... camni laa skarangg~~!! *sepak*

wuhh.. nak tengok corpse bride... ;___;
Nak dekat exam nih, ariz mesti taknak gi tengok..
*shrugs* Owh well, mom promised to get me the RM10 DVD. RM10, bleyh tgk ramai-ramai, siap bleyh ulang-ulang lagi kalo beli DVD. Kalo wayang, heh, you get the picture. *pfffT*

SHEZNEE!!! JUM TENGOK SESAME~~~!! >v<
Erk.. ade ke tak lagi screening corpse bride tuh bile Shez balik sinih. Hurmm.. >o<

Haiyah..

Laalaalaa~~ Bosan bosan~~ Lalalalaaa~~ Owh! Lagi 30 minit nak bukak pose. Yoshhaaa~~~~~~~!!!

>3<
rase cam sesia jerk pose ari nih.
know why? coz i woke up at 6.30... no no.. not 6.30am.. it's 6.30 in the EVENING!!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!




...

but heck.. I slept at 10am.. woke up at 2.30pm coz ariz called to wake me up. And the sleep again coz feeling groggy.. then lil sis and lil bro jumped on the top of the bed and woke me up at 3pm. So there I am couldn't fall asleep again. I went to pick up my towel and put it in the bathroom. But then I forgot sumthing so I went out of the bathroom and then... when I went back to my room my lil bro and sis are out. @__@;; ahh~~ that bed looks soo soft and fluffeyh.. *bomp* Went back to sleep again.
towel is still in the bathroom..
whutdaheck...
i wanted to doze off for a few minutes but then when I woke up..

()@)!*#()*#$)!*)@)!@#)
It's 6.30PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


batal ke pose? @WO;;; *swt swt*

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ahh.. today sleep early lah.. what time izzit now? owh.. 3.30am!!! @wO;;;; ERKKK!!! Ariz suruh tido pukul 2.30am latest tadik. warhh~~~ addicted to Gaia~~ addicted to DA~~ addicted chatting² at YM and MSN~~ Nyuhhh...

okeh.. tido...

esok nak gi amik Deiryus kat hostel ngan pi main basketball ngan Arizsan.. pagi.. pukul 8am.... erk.. pagi....... ~_____~
3__3 groggy sungguh...

bleargh!

Nyahaha!! Appy anniversary yang kepertamaan for Shez ngan Kel coz their anniversary is yesterday!
^{27th OCTOBER 2005}

And on top of that, I got a free one week subscription at Deviantart. HAHA!! BEAT THAT!! What a coincidence!! >v< Yayhh!! Boleh usyar deviations with thumbnails!! @wO; And can view comments without having to click on the link to read it. >v< Ahh~~ The old days when mom paid for my subs for 3 months.

Owh~~!! Malam tadi pi makan mihun tomyam ngan Arizsan dekat Sri TTDi, depan umah tuh across sekolah. \\(>v<)// Lame dah tak pi makan memalam ngan Arizsan yoo~~!! Huhuhuu~~ Ari tu si Mafia asyik ajak pi yumcha sesame, sampai Arizsan terasa sedikit jeles.. yah? Nyuhuuuu..... So that's why I'm trying to make it out for dearest and go out with him today. My treat!! Yeah~!! Lepas pi makan, tetibe terasa nak drive plak my kancil tuh. ;__; Nak amik lesen.. ntah bile la agaknyer yerh.. worhhh... >o<

*burpp*
ayez baru lepas sahur nih. ngehehehe...
Mama kasik wa itu jamu tadih.. worh... jamu? @wO;; Mustika Ratu beb!! Wakakakak!! Erk.. jamu.. jamu.. jamu jamuan.. nyehh!! Mama kate die start makan jamu waktu umur die 13. Worh, padan la muke still mude sampai Arizsan pun bleyh terpikat! She asked me to take the jamu thingy coz of my "keputihan" and "keletihan" and "kejerawatan" kenaikkan dengan kebanyakkan di kemukaa. *sigh* Pelik ar jamu die.. bulat-bulat cam taik kambing. Siap ade "number" lagi ntuk pil tuh. 1 sampai 4. pil 1 makan ari senin... pil 2 makan ari selasa.. pil 3 makan ari rabu.. pastuh makan balik pil 1 ari khamis.. pil 2 ari jumaat.. pil 3 ari sabtu.. and pil 4 (special pil) ari ahad. Ari senin sampai sabtu kene makan tujuh bijik. erk...

ntah boleh ke tak nak stay disiplin memakan jamu-jamuan nih...





^^;







owh by the way.. i just started going back to Gaia Online... ^^; Bought myself a CoCo Kitty Plushie there. Suppa comel laa~~ tak tahan!! >o< abih 10k. X3

My Gaia Online avatar -->

I just had a conversation on the phone with him.
Seems like he just checked out on my blogger.

*sigh*

I dunno what to think anymore...
It's the same.. again and again..
He kept on reminding the same thing..
I kept on with my ego and do the things I'm used to and whatever I feel like doing... It's wrong. Deep down inside of me I know it's wrong to do so... It's not right. You can't live like I do in a place where community, communication and social relationship counts in life. You can't live by yourself in a place where community, communication and social relationship counts in life. Even if you do live by yourself, you're not living a healthy life... Interaction and socializing with the community (or group of peers) around you is important. Dalam agama pun sendiri galakkan kite berkerjasama, tolong-menolong, bantu-membantu sesame sendiri. Kalau tak bertegur sapa ngan sesama sendiri lebih dari 3 hari pun dah kira berdosa. See... Agama tu sendiri tak menggalakkan kita hidup seorang tapi menggalakkan kite berkawan, berinteraksi, dan hidup dalam harmoni sesame sendiri. =__=;;
Blame it on me, I just noticed!
Jahil...

Aku bukan la susah mana pun nak fit in crowd... Most people would accept me as I am even if sometimes they'd find me very sarcastic, extreme and evil. But we joke around when the situation is not tight. We still hang out together... Cuma masa-masa tegang tu memang berapi jugak lar. It's the temper.. my short temper.. my mood swings.. my extreme thoughts and emotion. Extreme... Extreme... Extreme...
Dah berapa ramai dah cakap kat aku, aku ni extreme...
What extreme?? When it comes to thinking, I'd either think that it's either really bad or really good. It's either okay or not okay. No compromising... When making decission or advice or thoughts about something, it would either be black or white. No greymatter... Heheh..

Let's say that when someone come over you and he or she is giving a bad first impression. I would directly just HATE that person untill he or she would show me the better side of him or herself. Well, most people would consider that he or she gave that bad side of themself because of some reason. Let's say they're nervous or they're trying hard to convince you how good they are. Well, in my case I would just ignore that possibilities and reason and just HATE that person from the start till the end. That is what they mean of my extreme-ness........ When I like sumthing, I really like it.. When I hate it, I despise it... When I'm bored, I'd just leave that thing be... The same thing when it comes to showing emotion. When I love sumthing, I'd get really attached and tends to get really insecure and jealous when things doesn't go my way. When I hate sumthing I just tend to make them hate me too in a way...

That.. is.. just.. ME!!

So.. this is the part where Ariz come to save me from being LOST in my own world. Hurmm... He's changing my perspective view of seeing life. He's trying to make me see world in a rational position. He's trying to not make myself being hated and misjudged by others... He's trying to make a "better" person out of me...

I'm glad he still care for me after all this while I seek for his attention. He adviced me and gave me reasons as why I should change my "despicable" behaviour of treating others in an extreme way. He asked me to think.. think about other's feeling instead of just ourselves. He wants me to quit living in my own world and start to "open up". Stop it!! Just stop it!! Stop living by myself..
No..
I am not living by myself..
I am living in my own world..
WITH HIM!!
He wants to take me out of this world and start to be more mature... Start to consider others coz others will come and go into your life. They'll be the one to hep you and also may be the one who'd destroy you. But that is what life is all about. Give and take... You give sumthing to others and others will take sumthing from you. If you just sit there by yourself without any give and take, you won't go nowhere.

GAHHHH!!!!!!!! >.<
;__; I really don't know how to live...

I've been living in my own "safe" barrier...
He wants to take me out and open me up...
I don't want to.............. I'm happy as how I am...
am i.. happy??
I'd be just happy if I'm just by myslef.
But I'm not..
He's with me.. And he hated seeing me like this.




















think ayez think......
stop being so egoistic...
be considerate.......

stop it!! just stop it!!
stop hurting!!! stop hurting others... stop hurting yourself!!!!!

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the phone conversation also lead to the naked truth that he's beginning to hate me. Yeah.. he admitted it. On the scale of 0 - 10.. (0 being that he still loves me, and 10 he hates me), he said that his scale is at 0.5...... Which means he loves me but starting to get fedup a bit...

being the extreme me, i was expecting an answer of 0... but it came out 0.5. I went paranoid and thought that HE HATES ME.

f*ckit!
he's NOT!! 0.5 is... like.. HECK!! Come on laaa... ayez!!!!! stupid!!! 0.5 = he loves me but I'm hurting him for being like this. He doesn't hate me...... just that he still have feelings and if I am constantly keep on being like this, the scale would increase to a certain dangerous point.

So.. stop it...
try to change...
for the sake of YOURSELF!!!!!

;______;
oneechan.... i'm lost......
hariz.... you made me think.....
ayez..... why do u have to be so difficult....

p/s: happy 1st anniversary to Shez and Kel!! >v<

Adoihh!!

Aku kebelakangan ni cepat betul naik angin. Semalam jerk bebudak yang datang bilik aku nak buat assignment SUR238 kene marah (sembur) tak pepasal. >3< Sarcastically!! Dorang tuh dahlah jenis pompuan yang BISING ngan kalo buat kijer pun nak pot-pet-pot-pet jerk.

Aku lepas bukak pose ngan Ariz, Mooaz ngan Pejal, terus balik bilik. Sampai bilik dalam pkul 8.30 camtuh.. Sampai-sampai bilik jerk, Tikiniki jer yang ader. Anis (budak group SUR238 aku) tak balik lagi.. Lagipun janji ngan Kak Dina (group SUR238 aku gak) nak buat assignment tu pkul 10pm.. So.. sementara menunggu dorang sampai, aku pun ketiduran lar kejap. Hurmm.. Ntah baper lame ntah aku tidur, satgi dengar la bunyik riuh kat luar tuh. Satgi Didotte plak masuk bilik aku. (sebab nak carik Tikiniki, budak group dier) Kalo masuk bilik aku diam-diam takpe lar, nih dengan jalan cam gajah nyer, pastuh bukak pintu DUSYUMMMM~~~~~~~~!!! Katil aku plak memang betul2 tepi pintu. Kalo bukak pintu flying skek jer ditambah ngan kedudukan katil yang tak betul, memang daun pintu tu flying kene kepala katil tuh!! PERGH!! Bingit betul!! kepala aku dahla dekat ngan kepala katil tuh. Bergegar rasenye pale otak.. aku sabar lagi.... okay... tak sengaja.. satgi die kuar jerit-jerit cam haram pastuh masuk balik bilik aku dah tak leh blah!! //(>o<)\\ GODDAMMIT!!! Terus aku sound.. pastuh bangun... =__=;

damn..

And malam tu plak, time nak buat assignment tuh.. semua memang gile bapak *blur* tatau camner nak bwat. Lecturer memang tak pernah brief betul-betul camner nak buat... So kitorang main buat ikut kepala sendiri je la. NASIB!!! >^< Aku tengah baca la satu buku ni pinjam kat library.. Ade la die ajar skek camner nak buat bende alah tuh. Diorang tanye camne nak buat, aku pun tatau nak buat.. tu yang pi refer buku. Satgi dorang ni pi bising-bising sembang-sembang pasal laki pekejadah haram ntah.. dok berangan kosong nak laki ni laa.. nak laki tu laa.. aku nak try paham buku tu pun susah!! GAHHH!!! Last-last time dorang dok gelak ngilai cam pontianak sundal aku sound... "Woi!! DIAM LARH!!" Pastuh dorang cakap sorry...

satgi... dalam 30 saat camtuh..



bising balik...

HARAM!! >,<










Hurmm... mampos larh.
Ni sebab aku slalu tak ngam ngan budak pompuan... dorang bising tak bertempat. Kejadah!!!! ="=

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Tu cite semalam..
hari ni plak... kat library.. Jumpe Jijaa, waktu aku tengah pi fotostetkan notes IPK ntuk Tikiniki ngan Anis. Ntah apsal aku baik sangat nak tolong fotostetkan... hurm.. kalo ikut ati yang keji lagi kejam aku, aku simpan je notes tuh. Sape suruh tak gi amik waktu review hari tuh. ARGHHH!!!!!!! I'm having identity crisis here.....!!! >.< Anyways, jumpe Jijaa.. kat library... Jijaa ni kire member gak ngan aku waktu form 5 dlu sebab main RO sesame. Kire boleh masuk gak la ngan Jijaa nih. Ok la dier.. Tapi ntah nape tadi, die elok-elok je tegur aku satgi aku bleyh plak buat KEREK ngan dier. Dier gurau-gurau cakap ngan aku...
"Ayezz!! tak wish pun birthday aku ari tuh"
then aku reply..
"Ko sape? Aku kenal ko ke?"

....

kengdian Jijaa buat muka terkejut.. tapi die boleh blah lagi, die try la buat-buat lawak.. Aku tak layan... last-last die kecik ati terus chau. Ariz ade ngan aku waktu tu, die gi kejar Jijaa. Dunno what they talk about. I assume Ariz pi pujuk/sedapkan ati Jijaa. Waktu tu memang malas dah nak pikir perasaan orang. LANGUNG MALAS NAK AMBIK KESAH!! PERGI MAMPOS!!!!!! ="=

lepas tuh.. Ariz datang kat aku lik. Tegur aku.. apsal buat camtuh kat Jijaa..Kesian dier. yah.. and then I came back to my senses. She didn't do anything wrong. Why am I pissed..?? @wO;; Ape kene ngan aku!!!! Asyik nak marah jerk!!! wuhhhh!!! mood swing... one minute i'm okay.. the next thing you know it I'll be throwing grenades at random people.

=______=;; apsal... ar..?

Hurmmm.... one thing makes me think... What Ariz just said to me...
"Ayez, jaga la sikit perasaan orang lain. Ko komplen ko takdek kawan, camner orang nak kawan ngan ko kalo dah perangai ko camnih. Jangan sampai orang chop ko sebagai annoying dah la..."

Okay... first thing, aku bukan komplen aku takdek kawan.. cume kawan pompuan aku kurang!! bukan TAKDEK!! *_+ Plus, aku tak suke sangat lepak ngan pompuan. Makes my movement SLOWER!! Hanging out with guys makes me feel more free... Girls.. they tend to drag on decission making... Banyak karenah.. pastuh MEMEKAK!! *sepak* Bukan sume la.. but most of the girls I knew are lydat.

I know Ariz doesn't like the idea of me hanging around with guys often.. Plus, aku sorang jerk pompuan plak tuh. Mmm... Tak elok.. yah.. Okayh.. But then, I can't get along with GIRLS!! Tikiniki je la aku bleyh blah lagi.. boleh tolerate lagi, even sumtimes she seems to be on the "memekak" side too.. But boleh la tahan.. Other than that, i prefer being alone than accompanied by these girls.

tatau laa.. aku rasa cam aku mempergunakan jugak member-member pompuan aku ni. Just carik dorang bile perlu jerk.. know why i do that? Coz I'm being used myself!! Bebudak aku (baik laki baik pompuan) sume pun macam mempergunakan aku. I'm getting used to this "using people for sum reason" kinda life. And it's really tiring... I'm fed up with it!! Can't people just come to you because they want to???? Not because they want sumthing from you..??!!

*&!@(*&*(!#(#!#

I'm not okay today......
the weather...
the mood....

sorry Ariz...
I'm being myself.. like you want me to be... this is me...
THE UGLY SIDE OF ME!!

Nyuhhh~~~!!!!

Yesterday I went to UiTM in the afternoon and submitted my ARC221 (History Of Architecture) report on the presentation we did a few weeks ago.. Our group did the presentation on Chicago School 01. It was quite interesting. Yah.. History is interesting!! If only have to know about them without having to sit for exams. *sigh* Anyways, I don't want to rant about what Chicago School is all about. Just that Chicago School produces a group of architects who started the construction of the skyscrapper. >v< Yeahhh!! High-rise buildings babeyhh~~!! I have this liking towards high-rised-multi-story towers. @wO; I'm starting to admire the works of our local architect, Ken Yeang! The one who did Mesiniaga at Subang Jaya.. >v<

Bangunan Mesiniaga

After submitting my report (thanx to my dearest Ariz for picking me up!), i went to studio bachelor part 04 to pickup Mafia's external hard drive since he asked for Yakitate animes. Uikz! Mafia dah potong rambut!! @wO;; WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKKA!!! Pelik giler rupe dier. Nampak kepala makin kecik~~ Alaaa kecik kecikk~~ Muke jambuuu~~!!

Owh yah.. While trying to find the lecturer's room for report submission, i got lost.. LOST!! LOST IN FSPU!!! In MY OWN FACULTY!! KYAHAHAHAHAH!!! >3< Even Ariz manage to find his way through in FSPU... Apo la deyyy... Sense of direction so sucky lar.. ~__~;;
Went back home after paying the bills at Celcom.
Transfer Yakitate and sum other goodies to Mafia's external hard drive.. and waited for him to come and pick it up around 4pm. On the way mafia nak datang sinih, die sesat. peh pehhhh~~!! Ari tuh dah pernah antar orang balik takkan la tak ingat jalan. Now I'm wondering who's sense of direction is suckier. Hmm... >3> Talked with him a while.. Yah.. Ntah ape la mamat nih merepek akibat kebosanan + kesangapan akibat takder awek nak temankan dier. Hehehe... Layan la mamat ni sampai pkul 5pm. He asked me for yumcha that night around 9pm and I said "tengok dulu kalo ariz kasik". @wO;; Ahahhaa!! At the end tak jadik gi yumcha pun sebabbbb.. ujan! And I slept from 5pm, woke up at 10.30pm. >v< Huhuhuuu........

Yayh!! Today dah start boleh puasa baliK!! Mweheheheheh!!
Seven days tinggal pose.. hurmm... =3= Maleh.. nak.. ganti.. argh!! Wuwuwuwu!! *kepiakkk*

@_@;; Okayyhh... petang ni balik asrama coz tomolo ade kelas SUR238 pkul 10.30am. >3< WAHSAIII!! MALAS GILER!! ARGHHH!! Hurmm.. nak gi bukak pose ngan muazsantan, tapi tatau la mamat nih dah bangun ke blum. Haiyaayayayayayayayayhhhh!!

Kayh!! GTG!!
Ujan kat luar tuh.. guruh petir.. @wO;

Laterz!!
Be back tomolo evening.. i think... *_*

KELLY CLARKSON LYRICS

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
YOU WERE A PART OF ME
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

SWALLOW ME AND SPIT ME OUT
For hating you, I blame myself
SEEING YOU IT KILLS ME NOW
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

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Juz now, on MSN.. i just noticed he kept on playing this song. And I remembered he told me once that this is the song he currently fave, the most. He said this song is him. He said it represents his feeling. It's him... I checked out the lyric and hear the song. The music and lyrics are very contradicting indeed. The lyrics are gloomy and yet the music is very hype and upbeat as if there's nothing wrong with the situation... Anyway, after reading and trying to translate the lyric.. I got hurt.

I'm not sure if it's because of my unstable emotion state right now...

But I do feel a penknife has just bruised my heart...

The words bold are what makes me think more about what it's trying to say. Those in CAPS are what makes me cry... Shit! >.< I'm such a crybaby. It just came running down my eyes. I can't hold back. It hurts...

I always thought of myself as the one who brings happiness to him, and at the end makes him feel worse. "SWALLOW ME AND SPIT ME OUT" <-- this tells it... I take him in, and I throw him out. Once.. I've even decided to end the relationship between us during the time when he was supposed to sit for his matriculation final exam.

Cruel aren't I?
inconsiderate..
I took him in.. Gave him all the happiness he could feel.. and then spit him out of my life just like that.

evil...

"For hating you, I blame myself
SEEING YOU IT KILLS ME NOW"

I used to feel awkward seeing him.. and as if seeing him makes me feel miserable. This quote is actually how i used to feel about him back when I was VERY VERY inconsiderate about him. Once we were going out together, and at the end of the day, he who usually talks alot and joke alot when quiet suddenly the whole day. Why? Coz I was ignoring him.. and it's killing me to see him at that time.

I don't know..

I still feel vulnerable...






Is he hating me?

He said he won't...
But I feel he does...

coz I constantly am giving him love and hate at the same time...





what am I?
drug?? >3>















*sigh*



help me... hariz...dearest... T___T

Ermh...
Tomorrow.. I mean.. This morning.. I'll be having my "postponed" BC presentation. @w@ Hurmm.. Kelakar ar plak kelas ari ni, eh, semalam (jumaat) cancel la plak! Lecturer tibai jer cakap nak buat kelas ari Jumaat (siap cakap wajib plak tuh) satgi diorang yang cancel sebab cuti Nuzul Quran. ~_____~;; Apodaa.. buang mase orang betul. kalo tak bleyh jer balik umah berpoye-poye. Ehehehehh... yah. rite.. berpoye-poye. ^^;
Bosan lar.. asal presentation jerk, diorang lantik aku jadik ketua... damn..
tapi salah aku gak.. tak caye kat bebudak sendiri yang dorang ni bwat kijer. Last-last aku gak nak buat sume bender. Damn!! i just noticed..

I'm a...
WORKAHOLIC

hurmm..............
kemaruk buat kerja?? @___@;;
Gila.....
bukan aku...




ye ke? @_@?

After a long grueling struggle to re-compose my presentation drawing for final review (the drawing for my final submission was messy and I decided to re-do it), finally DESIGN subject has TRUELY come to an end!! Now it's time to concentrate on the subjects!! No more thinking about DESIGN coz DESIGN is here NO MORE!! YEAHH!!! And I'm just glad my marks increased than last semester. (>v<) Yep yep!! Hontou ni ureshii daaaa yooooo!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!

ahh... sou.. to those who dunno what final review is.. well, it's the time when the lecturers of architecture from the "other" side of UiTM (kira macam cawangan lain ler) which is from Perak (we call that place Seri Iskandar) come to the main branch in Shah Alam to re-evaluate our lecturer's evaluation system to see if it's up to the ISO sandard or not. It's the same thing for the students in Seri Iskandar too. Our lecturers would go there and re-evaluate them as well. This is the chance where some people would be called in if they find that they're supposed to get higher marks than what the lecturer had given them. The Seri Iskandar's final review was on Wednesday and Thursday is our day. @w@; All of us (well, most of us) stayed at the studio to re-do our drawings and some even fixed up their models from project 01. Mine was still in an okay condition, (except column yang hold tangga dan amphitheatre dah paah skek) so I didn't do much on project 01. I re-draw the whole presentation drawing for project 02. Hurmm... ~__~''

Final review day was... dunno la.. somehow this semester's review day was really fun and made me happy. I got an orange sticker for my project 02 model. *yayh* Which means my model will be published in the Revue or Design Coursebook. Mwahahahaha!!! *hontou ni ureshii* I just bought last semester's Design Coursebook and... yayhhh!! My model for final project last semester got featured as the selected works for diploma 02. >v< My pinecone pavillionnnnn~~~ for ZINT!! Kyahahahah!! *ka-dush*
I went through quite a hard time last semester.. and this semester is no difference!! Except I have more people to "crit" (criticisize? dunno how to spell) on my design. >v< When I was re-doing my drawing for review, mafia-senpai (along with his studio dudes.. semua taicho taicho hebat. Final semester for degree students.. *v*) come over to my studio to have a look around. Last-last stop kat tempat aku, tanya macam-macam. Ahahahah!! Yang paling tak tahan si Mafia arh! Datang situ, kutuk-kutuk, gelak-gelak.. pastuh chau!! >o< Ingatkan nak tolong.. aihz... takpe takpe!! Buat sendiri lagi puas!! But really laa, my drawing banyak kelemahan. Supposed to crit with them first before coming up wirh the finals. Ufufufuuu... Next sem dorang dah takdek (unless Mafia repeat) so i guess next sem I can just cling on to Mecha-senpai... @w@;; >v<;; Next semester... i'm in diploma 04. WAHAHAHHHAH!!! So fast la dey.. I can just remember my first day in UiTM Shah Alam as a diploma 01 freshie. *v* still innocent.. and naive.. wuu..

I just noticed that Puan Nakiah will be handling as one of the tutors for next semester Design subject. @___@;; ACKK!! Puan Nakiah!! My studio master in diploma 01. TT______TT I can still remember the horror when I was in 01. I feel the aura that she hates me.. call me paranoid. I really think she hates me. She also took over Graphic Communication subject for last semester, and History class too... My assignments didn't get an A when I think I should get an A. At least B+... T_T Afoi.. tatau la nak cakap ape. Just hope next semester she's an okay mood with me. *___* Dun wan to flunk Design coz of bias-ing. TT_____TT I bet Liyana will sure to get an A+ for next semester. Nakiah likes her, a LOT... *sigh* And Salam too... and Khai too... coz they're the "offspring" of her ex-uni-mate...

After review, went back to hostel... and sleep!! Arghh!! SLEEPPPP~~~ ON MY BED~~~~~ WAHSAIII~~~!!! Heavennn!! bebudak bilik aku sume memengsankan diri selama lebih 18 jam. Tido petang tu dalam pkul 2pm, pastu pkul 10 pagi ni baru bangun. Hahahahahaahahahahahahha!! gile keletihan mereka nih. Aku nih kalo si Ariz tak kejut ajak bangun gi bukak pose pkul 6pm tu, maybe jadik cam dorang gak kut. Tidor tak bangun-bangun. >v< Ehehehe...

Yoshh!! Exam starts on 10th November... Final paper is on the 28th. Yeahhh!! Tak lama lagi nak cuti nihh!! WOOHOO!!!! Luffleyhhhh semester~~~~ just hope I'll do well in my subjects too. *v* wuwuwuwu.. rasa macam tak belajar ape-ape jerk sem nih..... blur giler tak ingatttt!!

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p/s: I brought back my digicam to transfer the review pics.. but SHOOT!! I left my transfer cable at the hostel. ~___~;; So I'll post it up whenever I manage to remind my poor brain to remember stuff. Yah.. and sorry i dun have a card reader. Man, it'd be a whole lot easier if I just have one. :3

Arghh!!!
BEST GILER!! Submission dah settle!! MWAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! Although presentation aku ntuk final submission ni dikire incomplete oleh lecturer (sebab tak letak sume requirements, Aku skip exterior sketches ngan conceptual ideas) but at least it's over now!! Yayhh!!! No more sleepless night, no more sakit tulang belakang, no more tak sempat nak makan, no more tidor dalam sleeping bag bawah meja, no more, no more!!! NO MORE!!!!!! >v<

Well, no more sampai naik semester depan la... *duh*

Sepanjang duration ntuk siapkan project final nih, macam-macam jadik. Dah la submission time puasa... hadoi.. tak merasa sangat la berbukak puasa nan family tercintak. Kengkadang tuh bukak puasa sengsorang jerk kat studio... T__T Bebudak pompuan studio aku plak jenis ber"clique". Mana la nak ajak sangat aku yang outsider nih bukak puasa sesama. Ahahahah... eh wait! Aku outsider ker, atau memang aku ni jarang nak lepak sangat ngan diorang. *grins* Hehehehhh.... so takleh la nak salahkan diorang, memang aku yang pilih ntuk tak lepak ngan diorang. Hurmm...

Waktu buat design nih, banyak kali aku tensen dan.. yeah.. menangis. TENSION giler!!! Banyak kerja nak kena buat at one time. Design, design jugak.. Pastu ade lagi plak presentation History plak... Pastu kene submit assignment ntuk Building Services plak... Pastu presentation Building Construction lagi.... Nasib aik assignment BS ngan BC ditunda. Kalo tak naik GILA aku nak buat semua dan submit on the same week. =v=;

No use complaining...
I'm just glad Design Submission is OVER!!!!!!!!!!

KYAHAHAHHAHAH!!!

Now I guess I can sketch sumthing else other than Design related. (>v<)/ *yayh*

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p/s: late entry.. dah type mender ni lame dah, tapi ari tu balik umah lupe bawak balik AkaiNekow (thumdrive) so terpost la lambat. Malas nak type yang baru punye pasal. ehehehe.... so.. >v<

p/p/s: Owh.. yah.. i just got the result for my Design submission. Overall dapat B+. Dedua project B+. Project 01 - Urban Infill ngan Project 02 - Artist's Retreat. B+... Kire okay lar.. Sem 01 aku dapat B-.. Sem lepas B.. Sem ni B+. *Alhamdulillah~~~* >v< just hope review nanti takde la turun grade pulak. T___T Sodeyh den...

p/p/p/s: ranking aku dalam studio.. number 14! @w@;; ugleyh nyer number. Would love o go for 7 though.. but.. owh wel.. girls dalam studio aku sekor pun tak masuk ranking top 10. *hurmmm* Kenape yer? Bias? Ahahahah... Paling tinggi pun no 11, Liyana si anak Arkitek JKR Amer Hamzah tuh. Kire overall girls aku dapat number 2 ar... Hurm... number buruk gak. ~___~;; Suke number seven~~~ Lalalalalaaa~~

Ape-ape pun.. ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!! >v<

*peh*

Restless week I have.. yess... (tries to impersonate Yoda) >v<
Heck!! It's been really tiring! Submission date for Design is coming (as for today, I'm left with 4 days left). I haven't been sleeping properly for the past 8 or 9 days. I can hardly recall when was the last time I had proper sleep, on my bed, at night... Now I only sleep in my sleeping bag, under the table at my studio, around 5 or 6 am. Latest is around 7am. Sleep for 2 hours is considered HEAVEN. I can hardly distinguish between night and day... @w@ I missed a lot of class because of fatigued physical... And....... GAHHHH!!! I still have lots more to do for my final presentation. T_____T

*shoots*

No use complaining though.......... T_T

This is the first time I ever experiance such *hell* of submission day... Hahaha..... Adei.. nak gelak pun penat dah. Hurmmm.... >.< Sedih jugak submission date time puasa nih. Makes life (my perut actually) a bit harder considering I'm suffocating from gastric problem and windiness of stomach. Err.. maksud aku, perut masuk angin. Eheheh...

I just finished my History presentation. Got back home for buka puasa and to return mom's laptop. Good thing now I have a "driver" to send me back home. ^^;;;; *swt swt* No need to bugg mom to pick me up. XD But somehow I'm bugging other people pulak.

Yoshhh!! After bukak puasa ni, nak sambung buat kerja!! 23/10 is supposed to be study week... and supposed to have cuti raya. *hmmmmm* I wonder if this sem there would REALLY be a "study leave"..... *cynical smile*

yah...
selamat berpuasa!! =^___^=

Ever heard of that story? fairy tale? aesop fable?
If you haven't, well, it's a story about an ant who work his butt of to prepare for winter season while a playful grasshopper spent his summer time playing and fooling around. At the end of the day, the grasshopper felt sorry that he had wasted his time instead of making preparations for winter time.




































i'm about to become the grasshopper. XD
haha... *stabs*

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Final submission is on October 13. We have to submit a 1:100 scale monochrome model (thank god no colours and large scale) AND drawings. Yeah... 4 Elevations, 2 sections (minimum), floor plans with interior lay-out (that means furniture organization included), 2 interior sketches (minimum), what else... owh! Site plan, scale 1:200 with roof plan. *yay* ~___~

The lecturers has kindly given us more than 2 weeks to finish up with the submission. And guess what I did?? KYAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! PLAYYYYYYY~~~~~!!!!!! The first weekend, I went "lepakking" at Mafia's studio. He invited me there, and since I didn't have any mood to start my work early I just went and have fun there. Checking out his comp, watch movies, digging video clips and ads in his hard drive, mangas, animes, such... YESHHH!!!! (>v<) I even invited Adam-san and Yen-sama to watch FF:AC at his studio. At first these two are a bit reluctant since it's THE bachelor 04's studio... suppa suppa senior! But I'm glad at the end of the day they had fun watching. ^^ *nods nods*

Last Thursday night pulak, I pushed myself to get a jump start with my model making. Yeah.. Glad at least I've finally finalized my design and decide what I wanted to do with the facade of the building and all. But heck, my determination only lasted for.. what.. 30 minutes? I just cut out teh model board to form the swimming pool floor. Hehehe.. After that, I went playing with Adam-san. He asked me to join him for a game. What game? Ngehehehehehe.... main dadu!!! Our studio floor has this 30x30 red tiled floor. There's a line of grey tiles every 8 metres i think... so The game goes like this. Every tile is a square. We throw a dice, and the number on the dice represents the number of square we can move forward. Whoever reaches the other end of the grey line first, is the winner!! But before we reach the end of the grey line, there's obstacle - CHAIRS AND TABLES! We can't jump/step on the tables and chairs. Instead we have to move it square by square (tile by tile). Each time an obstacle is moved on a single tile, one of our move will be used.

get the idea?
hahahahahah!! It's stupid, but i had so much FUN!!!! (>v<)

Guess who won?
ME!!!!

After the game, I went to ask Tikiniki for a try... Too bad I lose to her. TT^TT She's got the luck!! *sigh*


Went to continue work soon after... but ended up disturbing Salam. >:D Afterwards, around 3am or so, the boys wanted to head back home already. Before that, Dannie picked me up and put me on his shoulder, carried me on his back and take me all around the studio as if I were GUNI BERAS!! (>o<) *lmao* As soon as Danie put me down, Adam hit me on my shoulder. *dush* I punched him back.. too bad he hold my forehead and then I couldn't reach him... arm too short. T^T Then all of em laughed at me. (>.<) They really treat me like their lil sis there... It's fun!! (at times annoying) We all laughed all night long (till morning) and then I barfed... @___@;; Bile banyak sangat gelak, muntah!!
Ahahahah... *swt swt* ~.~


i went to sleep feeling............ blank. :|
bile la nak buat kije nih.................................................








*v*

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

ahahahahaha!! obviously, how did they get this correctly? X3

at work or school.. i do best in researching?? Kyahahaha!! teringat plak Faris nick-named aku "ayez si Raja research". Siap bleyh buat ayat sarcastic lagi "ayez ni kalo buat presentation, ape-ape yang takdek kat internet tu bleyh jadik ade"

hurmm.. about the ideal careers..... *hmmmmmmmmm* i hate all of em. >.< *shoot*

You Are 80% Boyish and 20% Girlish

You have a tough exterior - and usually a tough interior to match it. You're no nonsense, logical, and very assertive. Sometimes you can't understand women at all, even if you're a woman yourself. You see things rationally, and don't like to let your emotions get the best of you.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i get along better with guys than girls... *shrugs*
and i guess i tend to do things quite how they do... *double-shrugs*
hurmmmmm......

but recently, i kinda hate the way they treat me as a "guy" more than a "girl".... =_=;; ironically, i'm the one 'indirectly' encouraging them to do so. and here i am hating the way they treat me. *shoot*