Currently listening to Dragon Ash. Which leads to.. reminiscing. I used to LOVE Dragon Ash back in high school days...

=A= I'm reminiscing my old 'juvenile' days. Those days when Photoshop and Internet Explorer was a new joyous toy for me. Those days when mIRC didn't even exist and my chatting platform was the JavaChat webchat applet where chatting with fellow Malaysians are very rare. Those days when I first known about HTML and Geocities free web hosting. Those days when I dig out tutorials just to educate myself to produce something from photoshop and geocities. Those days when socializing with online buddies are such a pleasent meeting. Those days.. Those days... compared to my days now, is really filled with colours and excitement. Everything was new. I wanted to try it ALL out not knowing about boredness and procrastination. The ultimate satisfaction at that time was seeing something I created with my hard work and time comes to reality. Nothing else matters. It was FUN!

But now.. haha!
Such different dimension.

For me to finish a stupid simple CG (quick cell-shading style) also took me over a month. Not that I'm putting my whole time and effort to produce a superb voila wonderful subarashi artwork with intricate detailings and shades. It's just due to mere procrastination. Same thing goes to my current project now. Building up fazuu.net. I'm thinking up so many so called wonderful things to put but at the end satu hapak bulu ketiak pun tadak. Why? Motivation factor dah tadak. I really miss my old old days. T___T When, I'm not so old and not so tired when staring at the computer screen for more than 10 hours.

Bebel banyak pun tadak guna la kan?
So kene la motivate diri sendiri gak walau ape jua cara sekalipun if you REALLY want to get it done. I guess sometimes tak serius sbb the "REALLY"-ness to get it done tak cukup memberangsangkan to generate my braincells and energy-electrons. Haha.. damn la why am i typing blog so rojak-like? O_O; Ack. Awal-awal punye la ayat BI puitis. hahaha.. dah malas dah.

Speaking of Rojak... For those fellow Malaysians who're checking out my Blog, have u ever read about Awek Aspuri from Ujang by Sarah? OwO I used to idolize her and envy her opportunity to publish her works in local magazine during her school days. That was my DREAM. She got it. I haven't. Anyway, check out her 24 page comic for the " 24 Comic Challenge and Sci-Fi/Fantasy Festival". Heard about the event? So damn la clashed with CF... Wanted to check it out. ="+ Read her comics here. Reading her 24 page comic, touched my heart. She's very proud of herself. She knows who she is, and doesn't give a damn of what other people might think as long as what she's doing doesn't do any harm to anyone. :3
I idolize her.
Such a good artist/servant of god...

My dad mentioned last night after dinner about an Indonesian artist (the visual art artist, not the menyanyi-nyanyi artist bleargh) who has such a well balance life. His duniawi as well as akhirat. He draws, he paints, he's also a successful photographer. On the side note, he's also a religious book publisher. He writes stuff about Islam. My dad says he specialises in Sufi. Being the ignorant me, I don't even really know the exact definition about Sufi. O_O; *knocks head* Up untill recently, I never even bother to check out about other stuff rather than duniawi... sangat senang lupa diri. hahaha... ="= Ikut mood. Sometimes I do remind myself about the later world of akhirat and all. But most of the time, I don't. =___=
Typical.
No motivation factor?
haha.. this is not the motivation case.
It's more like, sendiri yang tak kesah nak tau.

I am membebeling.
XD

Dunno la... lately i've stumbled a lot on bloggers who posts about their career life and religious-matter. Quite frequently lately. Even my dad talks of such thing now. Hurm. I should start giving a hard spank on my soul and liven up. Ape la mau down-down pulak. When the going gets tough, u should toughen up and get going to your target destination. Why, lying around won't get u anywhere. Right?

so..
ape tunggu lagi?
:3

3 Days of holiday. (for those who're still working) So mom decided to go back to Seremban since dad isn't around and I think it's been a while since we last went back. So yeah, I'll be away until Monday and probabbly.. Until Wednesday too. O_O I think mom has planned to go on a break to KL. XD My family very pelik. People usually go for a break at a calm and relaxed places, but my mom, sometimes liked to change the mood and go 'dig in' the hectic bustlin life of KL city. It's a good thing for me though since I'll be starting practical training on Tuesday and if we're in KL, I can get to work with less time consumption. Which means, ahhh~~ I can wake up later than 6am! XD

damn still not used to wake up early in the morning. =A= Even if I have class at 8.30am, I will usually woke up latest at 8.15am. And hahaha, yah mati la kene bebel dengan lecturer. Hehee..

so see ya guys later.

yeah! haha! it's late to update about Comic Fiesta but better late than never, so to say. Well, sales are pretty much satisfactory. Urhm.. A bit on the downside for the mini notebooks. (and some other merchandises. postcards, stupid low quality stickers. bleargh!) Although I was expecting the mini-notebooks to be sold easily since the price is.. only RM1. O_O But I guess people either aren't interested to buy it because of the empty pages or because they didn't know for what purpose to use em. T_T Next year, will put sumthing a bit more functional la.. ok ok. Points taken. (-v^)b

My Kitty notebooks sold out on the first day. Wahlau! Very terkejut man. Coz I was expecting Mecha's "Just B&W" notebooks to be sold out first since it's, well, featuring hot bishie sexy chick as the cover. I printed 12 copies of that while only 10 for kitty. But good thing all the notebooks are sold out on second day. Ah~ *sigh of relief* (some I reserved for online booking) Although, second day the wire-binding quality is a bit different for the Kitty and Demonic Angle notebooks which I reproduced. Wah, the later one is much better in terms of quality. A bit expensive, but, nicer! Next year, gonna do it at the new kedai la. Fufufu~! I don't mean to be bias or racist or whatever, but you can really see the difference in quality of production between malay services and chinese. +_+ Based on experience, obviously you know which one is better. But with malay shop owner, i get better discounts! XD Well, now the choice is between quality-wise and budget-wise. Can't have both, unless you really are 'kamceng' la with the owner. :3

FaZuu Works doujinshi.. 12 copies left on the last day of CF!!! Wheee!! Sold out MORE that half of what we printed. yay!! Successsss!!! >v< Will be selling the saki-baki to my studio-mates. But ah.. next semester semua dah pi practical training already. aiyah.. a bit hard to meet up. But heck, where there's a will, there's always a way. ^^ Gonna cucuk-cucuk them to buy em. Hee~! But yah, I lukis all muka my studio-mates and lecturer all cacated cacar air one. Forgive my lack of skill, avantgarde-tachi! As always, I am going to make janji kosong to not do my work last minute anymore. :3 Yeah, janji kosong itu. Never have been ditepati lagi. Hoho! But really la, next year very crucial. Really really REALLY need to manage my time properly. Or else, Die!

Speaking of DIE-ing... i mean, dying... My exam results aren't that 'lively'. This semester, drop again. The impact aren't as bad as last semester, but still... O_O; It's getting lesser and lesser... AND PLEASE NO LESSER THAN THIS!!!! T______T AHSAJHKAJSLKA!!! This coming semester is my practical training semester. Only TWO subjects. Practical Training and Dissertation. No space for error anymore. 100% commitment. USHH!!!!

I just got back from practical training interview at KL today. The office is REALLY nice. :3 Environment-wise, very cozy indeed. Not many workers, quite compact office, and ah, Mafia-senpai is there. Although he's more likely to bully me but I'm kinda looking forward for him to HELP me. Help la please. I jadi yu punya sub-con for two semesters for what la? But dude, please spare the cynicism and sarcasm la ok? i kinda have enuff of that already. Haha! I'll be starting next week for a warm-up test run at the office. A week testing-testing. Officially start, 8th January. Yeah! Will be going to and fro via commuter and putra. Stop by KLCC station and walk to Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. The office is situated next to AM Bank. A bit scary la crossing the street. O_O Suddenly my fobia kene langgar dengan kereta kancil on a ZEBRA CROSSING during my hi-school days kinda haunts me. Gila lu kat zebra crossing pun boleh kene langgar. =.= siao!

But somehow, I kinda looked forward to working. ^^ yeah!

side note, i haven't started yet with fazuu.net.. also ayez.fazuu.net...
T__T and practical training started oredi argh! curik masa! curik masa!!

*sniff sniff*
I think I'm having sinus or resdung or sumthing. Lately when I woke up (usually at 1300hrs), my nose itches and my eyes is kinda watery. Good thing my eyes doesn't itch.. I'll go garuk-garuk like crazy all over my face nanti. =A= Will have ugly swollen face like sarang tebuan.

I dunno what's the cause.. Usually I happen to get this when my sleeping pattern is hay-wired. Hurm.. prolly that's the cause la. Adoi..

Mom and dad just got back from Singapore dis morning. wah.. banyaknye bawak balik CHOCOLATES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! Got this egg-shaped chocolate summore. Easter egg chocolate (although it's christmas season) I love it!! *munchmunchmunch* And mom bought me one more Nike Dri-fit t-shirt. And.. ah.. what's this? TWO pairs of skirts? O_O; Wahsaii~~~!! I asked for a short mini skirt (gatal) nak pakai dgn pants underneath (gatal, nak test street styling macam tu) but mom said that skirt bersepah kat KL beli kat sane je nanti. So she bought me this knee-length (panjang lagi dari lutut, sbb aku pendek) and it was quite nice. I like the checkerboard pattern. Mom said I could use that to wear when I go to practical training, next month. XD
If I went to Mafia-san's office, sure kene gelakkkk punyer. bwahahahah!!

*malumalu*

Practical training... =A=
Supposed to go firm/office hunting but since my head is only thinking about CF CF CF, so I'm delaying it. ~____~;; Still having issues where to go.. KLCC? Mont Kiara? Or just Glenmerie just backdoor. (not literally backdoor) ~,~; *swt*

Me with my Evifyuu in the attic.. i mean, my working space. See the tilted roof making this room loft-like? see see? Gyahaha!! And me saje-saje gedik nak tunjuk Ruhara Haruko punyer vespa coz I LOVE FuriKuri. The damn gilaness manga stroke hits me to do very lazy comic style. =v= yeah.. rock on FuriKuri!! I love~~!! Ah see see.. My hair long oredy. Jeles tak? Kitsin jeles tak? rambut I dah panjang yuu~~ boleh libas~!! Kaler oren pastu dipp ujung cekelat dah boleh jadik ekor musang dah. >:D Mari la jelessss~~!! *coff batuk coff*

Ahh~ Had so much fun YM-ing with oneesan todae. *wheeee* Lame tak gelak depan computer cam orang gilak. Yay neesan! You really the one who can layan my gilaness and strikes back with something gila again and bakar my soul. *pssstttt* Go firewomen!! gogogo!!!
*hugs neechan sayang*
Thankyou for making my day better.. :D

Ah.. ni promo kaver. belum final lagi. nak tachap lagi. mari beli barang-barang keluaran FaZuu works~ Mari mari!! :3

datang sapot kami di Comic Fiesta 2006!!!!

One day, siew pau and maggi mee had a big fight. Maggi mee beat siew pau up
until it had bruises on its pau body.

Siew Pau loose in the fight and went back to tell all the paus family;

kaya pau, tau SA pau, curry pau, and etc.

So together?.. all paus went to find maggi mee for revenge.

On the way... they met Spaghetti?... so all pau ran to Spaghetti and BEAT
the hell up on Spaghetti that Spaghetti can't say a word,Spaghetti then
scream...

"WHAT DID I DO? I don't even know you all"???.

Then the siew pau say??..

"HEH! MAGGI MEE! Don't think I can't recognize you after you do REBONDING!"

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i find this joke very funny. XD
Kinda hit me at the heart a bit. =A=
I used to be maggi mee.. now i'm a beat up spaghetti. >v<

hmm.. they've come up with a new promo poster. so they're ditching the promo poster with my sugleyhh (super ugly) monochromed (used to be coloured) art with a new one. fine. ditch em all. i'm waiting for them to revamp the website and DITCH ALL THAT HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't have anything else to lose..
.. except just the whole precious time i spent with you guys all these years. such a waste. waste of time... =___=;

Should've clearly backed off earlier rather than waiting for the right time.

Ahh...
suddenly i had this high fever over male characters with red hairs and female characters with pink hairs. :3

I just got the news that they're not using my artwork for this year's cover. I wonder why did she asked me to do it but then at the end she's using her own artwork as the cover instead. The cover really does looks better (waayy better) than what I have designed (last minutely) but I think it's quite rude to just dump mine. Ok.. Promo poster. Nice. But making it monochrome when I had coloured it? What's the point of me colouring?? Might as well asked me to send the LINEART only!! duh... As I thought so. They think it's not good enough. I'm not good enough for them. They didn't appreciate what I did. Hurm.. They.. I can't use the word they. I think it's her. The rest of the crew.. I don't know. No grudge, yet.

I did TWO versions of the cover. The first one I previewed in my gallery, it's not done 100% yet. I haven't composed it.. She rejected it and asked me to do another. So I did. The initial one was used as the website layout, so ok at least it's being used. I produced another (right on the period of time for my assignment submission date) and also it's not 100% finished but I followed her pointers of the composition style. I asked to put in some other artworks at the tilted photo-frame looking box, just as she wanted. but no.. it's been rejected too it seems. I'm agitated seeing it has been rejected and she didn't even say anything about it to me... What's wrong with it? Can't you at least TELL???? Why? Am I irritating you for joining another group without telling you...? I thought we're free to contribute anywhere we want. Even some other members does..... I'm contributing and helping them more than what I did to you, is that the problem..? fine.

ok.. that's it.
I guess I won't be contributing anymore useless crap for them if this is how they treat me. Asked me to do something for the cover and ended up it being dumped for something less prominent. So what if my artwork aren't that good..? I'm not popular among the fans as you guys are, is that it? They never rejected anything from any other members before. The previous cover was so-so but why me??? This proves I'm not good enough for them. If this is what she wants (getting rid of whatever I'm submitting), then she's really getting rid of me. For good. After all, I'm nothing but a black scapegoat sesat in a flock of fluffy sheep.

i don't belong there.
that's final.
no more hypocrisy.
i'm sick of it.

They're still my friends though... just friends. Nothing nakama-tachi-ish brotherly-sisterly-ish.

Yeahp.. it's today.
And another month, we'll be celebrating our annual 3rd anniversary. Hopefully... :3 This may sound cheesy and all but I do hope we'd end up together. So much so many things happened and we're still sticking and supporting each other. Most of the times I'm the one who rebelled but he's still there... for me.

ehehmmm.. gadoh-gadoh tu biasa la kan?

anyway.. supposed to go out for lunch with him to celebrate this afternoon but seems like he postponed it to 5 o'clock. well.. I dunno. Suddenly i don't feel like going anymore. =___=;; sheesh.. i hate when the things i planned changed suddenly.

argh..

plus.. it's my first day of menstrual today. So my mood is a bit off. And the past few days I've been moody. Sorry Ryda-chan and the others who've felt I'm treating them a bit cold. I'm just like that. Sudden changes. sorry...

and now.. i don't have the mood anymore. =_+
bleargh..

i wanna try the quiz again. but this time only with AYUMI's song. Let's see how it goes.

How are you feeling today?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Girlish
(erkk... kinda.. O_O;; I'm tying my hair in two ponytails. XD)


Will you get far in life?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Appears "DJ Turbo Remix"
(ahh.. a sign of optimism in doubt)


How do your friends see you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Connected "Ferry Corsten/system F mix"
(Connected... are u sure....?)


Will you get married?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - My Name's Woman
(Huh?)

What is your life’s theme song?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Kaleidescope
(OoOoohhhH~~!! So it's really colourful and constantly at change! *whee*)

What is the story of your life?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - And Then... "Future Mix"
(=,=?)


What was high school like?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Too Late "Soul Solution Remix"
(AAAAAaaaAaaAaaaAaaiiieeeeeeeeooooOooeooeooe!!!)

How can you get ahead in life?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - I am... "Ramon Zenker Remix"
(Ah.. I AM ahead in life. already.. kyahaha)


What is tomorrow going to be like?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Monochrome "Orb 7 Vocal Mix"
(Mono..kurom.... ^v^ Forget Kaleidoscope already)


What is the best thing about your friends?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Boys and Girls "Push 12'' mix"
(ahahahaha..... i think i prefer boys.. :3)


What is in store for the next weekend?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Seasons
(U mean.. seasons the can drink?)


What song best describes you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Hanabi "Instrumental"
(fireworks!!)


How is your life going?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - July 1st "Mixed by Koji Morimoto"
(ah.. i was looking for something much more interesting. =,=)


What song will play at your funeral?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Boys & Girls "Junior's Radio Version"
(aik..?)


How does the world see you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Inspires
(hurm.. really? OvO)


Will you have a happy life?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Fly High
(uyyeahhhh!!!!)

What do your friends really think of you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Everywhere now here
(ah........!!!! i'm everywehre!)


What song describes the person you’re attracted to?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Appears
(I dun get it..)


What message would you like to tell the next generation?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - To Be "Acoustic Orchestra Version"
(ehehe..?)


Do you have a deep dark secret?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Over


What will I be eating next Tuesday?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - July 1st
(damn it's repeating again)


What will I feel/think the moment I wake up tomorrow morning?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - whatever "Ferry System F Corsten Vocal Edit Mix"
(ah.. that's complicated)


What will happen on my way home from work next Thursday?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Neverending Dream
(dream on..)


What will happen on my way home from work next Wednesday?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Boys & Girls "Accoustic Orchestra Version"
(does this means, the party is on? :3)


What will be my recurrant thought/mood over the next weekend?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Surreal
(gah!)


How will I go about studying for Monday’s classes tomorrow?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Hope and Pain
(>,< adoi..)

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that was fun. :3
gonna try again with other genres. gwehehehee....

took this from shez-nee's..
was feeling bored.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
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How are you feeling today?
SUNSET BEACH - My Pace
(^^; my feeling follows my pace)


Will you get far in life?
KELLY CLARKSON - Since You've been gone
(huh? O_O' Does this means, since you've been gone i can get far in life. kyahaha!)


How do your friends see you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Independant
(ROFL)


Will you get married?
GLAY - Happiness
(ahh~ shiawase~)


What is your life’s theme song?
4U2C - Persahabatan
(erk.. how'd that song come up.. O_O)


What is the story of your life?
KEANE - Somewhere only we know
(We..? :3 Ariz and me? yay!)


What was high school like?
CHEMISTRY - It takes two
(=____= what does THAT mean...)


How can you get ahead in life?
KIRORO - Nagai Aida
(.__. Nagai Aida means.. in the long run. erk... aaaa... wuuuuuhhhh!!!)


What is tomorrow going to be like?
GUNDAM SEED (TAMAKI NAMI) - Believe (freedom G control mix)
(ahh.. and now you're telling me to be optimist when i can only get ahead in life in the long run. yeah sweet.)


What is the best thing about your friends?
FRUITS BASKET - Aisubeki Ashita
(which means.. Lovable tomorrow. ~_~; tomorrow tomorrow.. long run.. ah. shows me i'm such a procrastinator. lolz)


What is in store for the next weekend?
PROJECT POP - Salah
(WAKAKAKAK.. apekah?)


What song best describes you?
AYUMI HAMASAKI - Everywhere now here
(O_O; bleargh!)


How is your life going?
AVRIL LAVIGNE - Complicated
(^______^;; *swt* U bet..)


What song will play at your funeral?
GENSHIKEN (MANZO) - Yuukai No Sutarujii
(Abduction of 'something something'.. dunno the meaning of sutarujii)


How does the world see you?
PETERPAN - Di belakangmu
(Bwahaha! so does this me I'm leading? I'm leading? :3)


Will you have a happy life?
RAMMSTEIN - Du Haust
(err.. dunno what it means. but the songs says a lot about "you hate me. you hate me" ahh... O_O;;)


What do your friends really think of you?
UTADA HIKARU - First Love
(~_~; ahaha.. not necessarily)


What song describes the person you’re attracted to?
MARIAH CAREY - I Still Believe
(O_O; great..)


What message would you like to tell the next generation?
CRAIG DAVID - Seven days
(XD ROFL)


Do you have a deep dark secret?
BLEACH (UVERWORLD) - Dtecno life
(ah.. this is Ariz's fave song! O_O; dark secret? apekah itu..?)


What will I be eating next Tuesday?
M-FLO & CRAZY KEN BAND - Cosmic Night
(ahhhH~~~~~ yummeyhhhh.. ?)


What will I feel/think the moment I wake up tomorrow morning?
JENNIFER LOPEZ - Get Right
(coz i've been doing a lot of wrongs lately..? But usually this is wat comes in mind. ahhh!! i have to do this right. or this.. or that...)


What will happen on my way home from work next Thursday?
GUNDAM SEED (TAMAKI NAMI) - Distance
(=A=)


What will happen on my way home from work next Wednesday?
GWEN STEFFANI - Cool
(=v= hope it does. i love driving in cool condition. altho.. i'm not working atm)


What will be my recurrant thought/mood over the next weekend?
BOA - Everlasting
(O_O ahh.. really?)


How will I go about studying for Monday’s classes tomorrow?
FORT MINOR - Remember the name
(remember!!!!!!!!! rememberrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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ah.. that was fun! :3
now let's start working on that comic. :3

Hehee.. lame tak post entry.. Nak kene warm up balik ni. :3 Ahh! It's December already annndddddd Comic Fiesta is coming soon. Erm.. about TEN more days. ~v~ Ah sweet. And I haven't started on my comics yet, for FaZuu. I'm not submitting my comics for CREST dis year. Wanted to (so they don't think I'm discriminating them or anything.. o_O) but I only managed to do only 2 pages. =___+ Stated early on that but slacking off halfway... so.. I ditched the initial idea for submitting comics for CREST. So now.. I need to work 200% more in this short ten days for FaZuu comics. Uyeahh! you can do it!! you can do it!!

Besides that, I've finished binding the notebooks. 2 designs from me and 2 from mechafrog. Wanted to do Kitsin's part but I can't seem to find a proper design which suits the 'quite expensive' notebook. Kitsin doesn't have a lot of CGs so I was afraid that the printing quality might come out poor as my skills and colour adjustment is not so good. ="= But no fret! Mini notebooks (less cost, plus cuter XD) has quite a lot of his designs. Here's the preview. Interested nak beli? :3 mari e-mail saya di ayez_lazydragon@yahoo.com

More info coming up. :3
ah.. rasa nak tukar layout blog. ="=