^_________^

This really made my day!
Sent this to Yaji for colouring, i guess he forgots.. or he has other better things to do. I posted the lineart at G-Forum... Some people actually take the time to colour it. CUN!!!! =)

done by hellangel1126

=__=;;

I'm having perplexed emotion right now. He ditched me for a phone conversation today. TWICE. Maybe more... if I count it from the past days back then. Owh well, it's my duty to understand the reason he had to ditch the conversation. *sigh* Work... Asses... i mean, assignments... yah, typical.

i can't be greedy.
he can't be spending ALL of his time for me... only me...

get out of my head!! get out!! GET OUT!!!!




i dunno why i have to think TOO much about him... why? *_*
let it go ayez...
get on with your life...
he has his, i have mine..
we're still together...















i just don't like being ditched so many times in a day... *sigh* Feels so alone. No one to talk to...

*blows wind*






"I'll always be there for you whenever you need me" <-- LIE!!!!!!! Fantasizing sucks!! Too much clinging is even worst...

fuck the person who come up with that quotation... >.<

Argh!!
>.<

Pagi ni semua bebudak part 03 diploma yang duduk kat kolej mawar diwajibkan gi join modul "pembangunan pelajar" yang dianjurkan oleh HEP. Benda ni memang every semester ader... Sem ni plak die decide nak jadik celaka skek. Last sem die buat 4 jam, start pkul 8.30am abeh pkul 12.30pm. Sem ni die buat melebih-lebih plak!! 8.30am sampai 10.30am ceramah oleh pengetua kolej. Ceramah bodoh-bodoh pasal modul pembangunan pelajar. Sem ni modul pasal keberkesanan bermesyuarat. pehh~!! After ceramah ader LDK. Sepatutnya die buat right after the talk, but somehow the fassilitator decided to go bitchy or sumthing that they had to postponed the activity at 2pm. Yang sial giler nyer, ngengada nak abihkan pkul 5.30pm. PERGH!!! Agak-agak lar weyh!!! Orang semua ada plan sendiri laaaaaa... Kalau takat nak buat dari pkul 8.30am sampai 2pm maksimum pun wa tak kesah la! Ni nak postponed tanpa sebab yang munasabah... APE KES??????????

Aku actually plan nak balik umah petang tu after ceramah, (nak gune internet buat essenmen) but terpaksa ar rescheduled lik plan. =__= Aku dah plan nak gune masa dari pkul 2pm (aku agak-agak die abis paling lewat pun pkul 2pm) sampai malam pkul 9pm camtu pastu balik hostel lik. Parents takdek kat umah, chuak!! Ehehe... Bermalam kat hostel la wa weekend nih. =) Tapi akibat perkara-perkara yang tak terdudga ini, wa nak tak nak terpaksa rush balik pkul 10am, carik ape-ape yang patut kat internet tu, print pastu chauuuuu before pkul 2pm. Tapi malang skali, ingatkan dapat gerak awal tapi si Arizsan plak abis kawad die pkul 11am. ="= (aku balik umah ngan Ariz since parents x der dan keter aku die bawakkan... wa takdak lesen beb! haha) So dalam pkul 11.30 tu bergerak dari uitm balik umah aku. Rush punya rush... sampai-sampai kat umah, kunci yang mak aku kasik tu (baru diduplicate, sebab aku x pernah pegang kunci umah sendiri) takleh nak bukak pintu gate umah aku.....

SHIT!!!!!
Ketensenan yang melampaui batas!!!!!!

Dengan segala panas baran yang ada, aku telah berevolusi menjadik monster yang kijer mencarut kat lantai sambil menyepak-nyepak dinding umah. Tensen sebab planning masa dah dikacau oleh LDK modul pembanguna pelajar tuh... Pastu ingatkan leh terus gerak pkul 10am, tapi terpaksa tunggu sampai pkul 11am (yg ni x kesah sgt)... Last-last penantian untuk pulang dengan harapan dapat mendatangkan hasil amat mensia-siakan masa dan tenaga.

Lepas tuh....
aku meletup... ariz pun meletup...
dedua tensen...
masing-masing ade kijer nak disiapkan...
masing-masing rasa masa yang sangat precious tu dibazirkan cam membukak pili air mengalir dalam longkang tak berenti...

Dah agak-agak reda skek.. ktorang gerak gi makan...

Pkul 2pm tu, aku dengan berat hati dan rasa nak belasah je sume orang gi attend LDK tu. Ingatkan bagus sangat la.. satgi... MEMANG BUANG MASA DAN TENAGA!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Setakat datang dok kat situ 3 jam setengah nak main carik harta karun, main cina bom cina bom, main kumpul-kumpul ikut bulan kelahrian yg sama... and all those SHIT baik TAKYAH!!!!!!!!!!!

tapi disebabkan uitm (HEP terutamanya) memang suka MEMAKSA pelajar attend benda-benda camni sambil mengugut sesape yang tak pergi TAK LEH grad... maka terpaksa la pergi gak....








i wish i could just kick the ass of the person who's in charge of the module.

Kalau nak buat, baik buat betul-betul. Kasik manfaat sikit, at least!! Pastu jangan la kije nak buang masa orang jer...







nak kata bodoh....... dok kat univerisiti....
ceh!!

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despite all those hatred and angst, all ends well at the end of the day. Aku dapat gak buat kije aku sebab ariz offer gune internet kat umah dier petang tu after LDK abis... Yeah!! Thanx baby!! (die tak tahan dengar aku whine and pissing off kat die la agaknye tuh. eheheh.... sorry!!!! >,< wa sangat tensen tatau nak lepaskan camaner.......)
And now aku nak start buat essenmen~~~

hurm.... 7/11 first paper ntuk final examinations aku...Lepas cuti raya.. ceh! subjek? Building Services and Enviromental Science. Haha............. yay..... ~v~;;

i cry...

again...............

and again.........

and again..........


it hurts,
both of us,
me, and him...



it always happens like this when we're having deep conersation (discussion) about what's wrong and what's not okay in our relationship.
Ended up I'm hurting him and making him feels useless... Ended up he's hurting me by making me feel that I'm the one who gives him happiness at the beginning and at the end being the same person who stabs him just like the rest of the people around him...

ironic, aren't I...?



i cried....
i'm tired..........

i wanna get away....






i can't...

i have responsibilities for him...
and so does he...





we live in two different worlds...
but we're trying our best to understand each other...

it's not easy..
the fact is, it's truthfully painful...
each time we fight, it always ended up like this....

me...
crying...
















and feeling relieved! TvT






cause at the end,
everything ends well...
everything is cleared out...
we become to understand each other more..........




this is why communication is IMPORTANT........



fuck emotionality!!!
fuck irrationality!!
fuck immaturity!!

yayh! finally scanned it.
Dug this out while I was at Nakiah's room studying for that stupid Bowditch method for Land Surveying subject last Thursday Night. Stupid lecturer never bother to teach us anything but asked us to do assignments on calculations by ourselves. Guess they want us to be self dependant, but giving out assignments without guidelines are just too much!! >.<>heck! at least i gain sumthing useful... *ahhh~~* ilmu!! ilmuu~~!!!XD

here's the pic. Not much...

<sup>ayez ngan muaz. aku tengah menconteng belakang baju dier. last day of school. yep!! conteng!!! kyahahaha!! ramai mintak otograf beb~!


Guess who? arizsan waktu muda-muda. haha!! tak reti senyum.. @v@; die tnegah pegang school magazine. images dalam magazine tu, done by ME!! haha!! layout design by stupid amyn the pencurik selipar.</sup>

hadeh...........
kebelakangan ni kebahangan aura si matahari semakin menjadik-jadik. panas gile seyhhh!! usually i'm not the type to comment much about the weather, but this is too much!! Nasib baik dekat kelas ada air-cond dan aku dok kat kelas dari pagi sampai petang... tapi hari nih!! ARGHH!!! Dah la pagi tu kelas Survey... kene turun padang hoki buat ukur padang dan ukur tanah sume kejadah tuh pakai alatan ukur compass. Panas beb!! Lepas tuh balik bilik... tidor! Nak tidor pun x bleyhhhh~~ hahaha!! paneh... baru aku tau betapa panasnye kebahangan matahari petang berbanding matahari pagi. *_*

rasa nak berendam dalam swimming pool... =___________=

It's odd.. Today's odd... BEL250 class today was canceled due to the reason that the lecturer couldn't find a parking space nearby FSPU. *swt*

One of my room mate who's going nuts with anger over this one guy yesterday (which both of them fancies each other but doesn't want to take the step to become "couple") are back together happily again today. Last night she was quite depressed and angered (dunno for what reason) but today I saw her going back after History class together in his car... And she's not heading back to the hostel but to the night market instead. @w@;; Semalam punya la menyumpah sampai koyak-koyak gambar mamat tuh... Hari ni happy cam gampang jer. Giler hypokrit!!! Bukan sekali dua jadik camni, dari semester 01 lagi...... =__=;; Kalau aku dah lama jadik gile.. peh!! Tatau la nak cakap camne, tapi aku rasa cam ramai gak bebudak studio aku (pompuan especially) sangat hipokrit.... Lain kat mulut, lain kat hati. Pastuh ngutuk belakang. Rasa nak sepak jer... Aku tak tau la diorang pernah buat camni ke tak kat aku (kalau ade pun, tak teruk la kut dan aku pedulik ape pun) tapi kalau dah agak tetiap malam dok kumpul kat bilik pastuh nyot-nyet-nyot-nyet ngutuk orang lain, panas gak telinga.. argh!! Hurmm.. tak dinafikan la, kengkadang aku dok join ngutuk same (sesetengah orang yang aku kenal sape yg diorang tgh kutuk tu) tapi aku terang-terang cakap balik kat orang yang dikutuk tu pasal ape yang aku kutuk die semalam. Ahahaha.. Yang kuang ajarnye, aku gi cite sekali ape yang member-member aku dok kutuk gak. X3 Annoying, right? Aku just rasa tak sedap kalau orang yang dikutuk tu tak sedar ape yang die dah buat orang lain rasa, so aku pun gatal la gi citer... as a result, aku dipanggil sebagai si mulut celupar. ^^;

bangganye... *sarcasm*

Anyway... ahahaha!! Pelik gile hari nih... dah la lecturer BEL250 tu cancel kelas sebab tak dapat parking, pastuh member-member bilik aku ni sume yang jenis agak malas nak gi buat kije kat studio rajin plak gi studio malam tuh. Aku yang agak slalu lepak buat kerja kat studio time malam design rasa malas plak. Siap angkut board, cutting mat sume dari studio nak buat kije kat bilik sambil bertidur-tiduran. Disebabkan esok takdek interim crit (Crit yang diambik markah), cuma ada crit biasa je.. maka sifat malas pun menjelma. Yeah! *peace*

Tatau la ape agenda bebudak pompuan studio aku nih... ~__~;; Diorang bising-bising tadi nak main netball la malam nih, nak tengok VCD kat studio la malam nih (sebab studio ade aircond), nak tu la, nak ni la... hurmmm... Aku kengkadang naik fed-up ngan diorang ni yang cuma planning je lebih. Last-last cakap kosong cam tu jer... @w@;;; Erk.. apsal ngan aku malam ni anti semacam je ngan bebudak pompuan studio aku nih. *dush dush* p(>,<)q

Aku serius ah takleh nak gerak ngan bebudak nih... ="= Rasa cam pergerakkan jadik "tersekat" bile "bersama" ngan bebudak pompuan... Dah la kuat cerita benda-benda yang sangat buang masa. Citer pasal orang tu la, citer pasal orang ni la, citer pasal nak kawin la, citer pasal malam pertama nak buat ape la... WTF?????!!!! @w@;; Senang lagi gerak sendiri-sendiri dari berkumpulan dan ber"clique" ni. Typical girls likes to cling among each otehr... ="= Menyusahkan! Tapi hidup sendiri-sendiri pun nyusahkan diri sebab bile kite susah takde orang yang tau dan takde orang yang boleh nak tolong. Tapi kalau setakat kawan ngan orang semata-mata nak mintak tolong, ape gune? Mempergunakan kawan?? Baik takyah...

ahaha.. luahan perasaan yang dah lama terpendam...
hipokrit giler!

fuck!

*v*;; /swt

Ahaha... tatau ape nak letak kat tajuk. XD

Ponteng kelas BEL250 petang nih. Doesn't feel like waking up after the afternoon's nap. *nyehnyehh* I'm planning to finish up the manga (TWO mangas actually) for CF this year. @w@ OMFG!! I nearly forgotten that I promised my junior, aDe-chan that I'd contribute sumthing as a guest artist for her doujinshi. *blinks blinks* Thus I have to come up with *TWO* manga... one for CREST07 and the other one is for hers. *sigh*
Babab lazy self.. X3

Semalam lepas lepak ngan Arizsan, terserempak ngan Ikan (member from SPM tuition) dekat Cendikia ngan awek dier. Worh!! Tak sangka die ingat lagi kat aku. Bwahahahah!!! Had a little chat and all... Suddenly I miss the old days of school... ^^;;

*ka-dushh*

Bosan betul cuti mid sem dah abis..... Nak cuti lagi!!!! >.<

*lmao*

Supposed to type this journal entry yesterday but as soon as I got things settled at home I'm just too tired to do anything but just sleep. @wO;;; WTF is wrong with me these days??? GAHHHHH!! Asyik rase nak tido jerk... Lemah tenaga batin.. Ahahahah~~~!! Neway, gotta make this quick! Mom's gonna send me back to UiTM in like, what 10 minutes?? >w< *quickie quickie* Piles of works are waiting to be finished at uni. O___O

Neway, met up with Ariz first that day inside the commuter. He came from Shah Alam station while I waited for him at Batu Tiga station. (Shah Alam station is before Batu Tiga) We arrived at Mid Valley around 11:45am if I'm not mistaken. Around that time. Since there's no buzz from Shez yet, I guess she haven't make it yet. So Ariz and I went to find my sandals!! *w00t* Found it!! (After goin around places to look for the fitting size) We bought the sandals at "Nike Women" shop near Jusco Ground floor. Guess what size I'm wearing? UK 3.5 (US is 6 i think)!! XD XD XD And I thot my size was 5 <--dunnow US or UK!! @v@ HihihiiiI~~~~ <-- gedik!
I bought Santiam III Blue... =) Nice one! Yeahh!! Saw Santiam III white/birch/orchid but the real thing doesn't look as nice compared to the ones I saw in the internet. *sigh* Indah khabar dari rupa, huh?

Jalan-jalan and then Ariz got this sudden crave to eat Chicken Foldover at McD. Teman la die makan sat... I didn't eat since "someone's" gonna belanja me makan at Secret Recipe today. Nyehehehehhh~~~ *pokes pokes Shez-neechan* Shez suddenly sms me saying that her bus's late and she'll be coming a bit later than expected. I didn't mind waiting when someone gets me informed. Oh ya shez-nee... About the previous post... I was saying I don't like waiting coz I was waiting from you to comfirm about Kel's coming from morning untill the time I YM you.... I didn't know your HP got cacated.. *w* Sorry ya, if you were insulted or sumthing...

After eating, Shez finally sms and said she's there!! *yay* Asked her to meet us at Secret Recipe (but the fact is I really forgot where the heck is that place at Mid) *LMAO* Carik directory and yatta!! Found it! Terus gerak~ MAMAM!!! WOOT!! I ordered NOODLE IN TOMYAM SOUP!! KENG!!!!!!! It's delicous!!! *lap ingus* WuuhH~~ Heaven beb!! Shez and Kel sehati sejiwa ordered Spaghetti with Chicken Meatballs. Man, thos meatballs sure looks huge. @w@ After makan, desert time!! Nyuhuhuu~~ Both of them ordered cakes... I wasn't in the mood for cakes so I pass. But when the order arrives.. Gahh!! Kenot tahan! Asked a bit from Shez and Kel. XD XD XD
*curik curik*

Watched movie afterwards.. wasn't intend to watch movies since mom asked to go back early for dinner. Pujuk punya pujuk mom and she let me go back a bit late. *fu-haaa~~* Wanted to watch Lords of Dogtown, but the show's at 4.50pm.... @w@;; OMFG it's late!! >w< Pikir punye pikir... ah! Sapu je la!!! The movie was ok.. not as good as I expected. *sigh* The trailer looks interesting.. but heckkkk~~! Anyways, nice moves though... and those clothes..euww!! XD XD XD Not so much into 70's 80's fashion... @___@;; Ahahahah!! Ape bleyh buat.. dah cite tu zaman-zaman tuh. ^^;;

Habis je movie, trus chau!! *hugs shezzzz* Thanx for coming neechannnn!!! Thanx for belanjaaaa~~~!! Thanx for huggles!! Thanx for everything!!!!! Gotta move!! Fai ti fai ti!! At the end.. we arrived quite late.. sampai umah plul 9pm. Lent Ariz my Kancil so he can get back home without having to ask for a cab. Die turun skali kat stesen Batu Tiga and ride on the cab from the station to my house with me. *w* Thanx dear! Thanx temankan... wuuhh.. dah malam!!

after sume dah setel.. tido!! Gahhhh!!! ZzzZzzZzzZZzz~~~

Balik dari studio, sampai umah pkul 10.25pm... Nak mandi, but ended up sleeping. Seriously badan x gerak ikut arahan. Kepala berat giler, badan letih... *BoOOM* Baring atas katil. Woke up around 11 or so.. Ariz miscall. Mesti nak comfirm pasal outing besok. *sigh* Check up on Hazu if Shez has replied on YM. Not yet... Masuk bilik air, jumpe lipas. Ahahaha... Kuar lik bilik air sebab lipas tuh bapak beso. *spray spray* Sambung tido lik... *ZzzzZZzZZzz*

Baru lepas mandi...
Shez said tak comfirm lagi. Didn't really checked what she wrote... Hazu terus logg-off his user account. Haiyaa...

Neway.. now tgh tunggu kata putus.. =__='' kinda hate waiting... nak tidor! serius sakit kepala....

Went to the studio this morning, hoping to get a jump start with my work. Arrived around 11:30am after buying some corrugated boards and soft boards and glue and.. alah.. the usual lah! Sampai-sampai studio, hampeh, sekor kelibat manusia pun tak kelihatan. (as expected) Still too early by the way. ^^; What do you expect? Them? Waking up early in the morning? Kyahahahaha!! Sedangkan ade kelas pun datang lambat... Anway, first thing I did after arriving is.. clean up my working space. Heck... Tak sampai seminggu tak datang lepak studio, dorang dah conquer tempat aku dengan baik hati dan murah rezeki mencampakkan segala apa yang dorang bleyh campak kat meja aku. Buku? Mock-up model? Model yang dah siap? Cebisan board? Board yang tak dipotong? HAH!! Campak~ Campak~~ Baik hati betul~!

Nak marah pun tak boleh.. sebab aku pun kengkadang buat camtuh. MWAHAHAHAH!!! Can't blame us.. Not enough space to work maaa!! Terpaksa la "korban"kan meja kengkawan ntuk buat kijer. Nasib arh saper suruh tak datang buat kerja kat studio. Ahahahaha... Ye la not enough space! So they say, kalo FSPU (my faculty) tu provide space kat kitorang seluas padang pun mesti tak cukup space gak. Ade je la benda-benda yang disumbat dalam space tuh. ;p Huhuu..

After cleaning up my table, I forgot that I ran out of butter paper. Prowling around the studio for left-overs. Yah.. I'm in luck! Amik skek butter paper dari Ruby. She left hers at the studio. *sapu* X3 Ganti balik ar. Amik pun skeping jer. Called Salam after that and asked him when the heck is he gonna come to the studio. Asked him to buy me a block of A3 butter paper sheets along the way. *sigh*

Takdak mood nak buat kijer sengsorang.. So I went outside and stroll along the corridor. Went back in.. *bored* Sketch sketch some rough prelimenary ideas and then suddenly Mafia sms me asking me to go and lepak at his studio. Mwahahaha!! Ape lagi!! *vooom!!* Bosan punye pasal... Lepak la studio bachelor part 04. =v= He handed me the sort of "reveu" book from Architecture School in Hong Kong University. Reveu.. It's a book comprising works from the students. We named that book as "reveu" here. Dunno what they call their book. It's written A.S.A.P there... @wO;; I think it means, Architecture Students Assosiation Publication.. or sumthing lydat. Ah.. ape-ape je la. @vO; The books' really handy! Got one student there who's doing a project with similar concept as what I'm working on. Modular units... Extendable spaces... Sumthing similar to that. Really nice!! I notice that the students there are really meticulous and hardworking!! Their models and presentations are done in quite detail. (compare to what we're doing) Mafia said their works are similar to those from LKW. (Lim Kok Wing) Never seen LKW's works before... *shrugs*

Mafia handed me Fusion #04. ^^; Kiyaa's work is on the front cover. I dunno how he feels.. He looks like as if he's recovering from the "so-called-trauma". Yah!! Good for him!! =) Lelaki takleh la nak lembik-lembik~~ (haha!! Easy for me to say) Shut up! Shut up!! Ayez just shut up!! =x Went for lunch with him.. naik motor... Wanted to ride his friend's Mosquito scooter, but I'm not so close with his friend. Plus, I felt a bit awkward so I pass.

After lunch, sambung la buat kerja~~ :)

Ariz-dearest called me around 3pm or so and said he's on his way back to Shah Alam. What?? I thought he'd be back at night?? @wO Weee!!! Guess I could see him this evening!! YAYHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Lucky I came by the studio today. If not, it'd be hard for me to go out and see him. XD YAYHHH!!!!!!!! Went to pick him up at Padang Kawad UiTM at around 5.30pm with Salam's car. (Salam jadik driver) Gawd.. He looked fatigue!! @w@;; I guess BTN drained quite a lot of his energy. He said he had night-walk last night and the session ends at 5.30am. He only had around 20minutes of sleep. XD No wonder the face and scruffled hair. Lolz!! And no wonder he didn't sms me last night.. aaahhh.. sou kaa... Lepak-lepak studio sat ngan die... Afterwards, headed to Kedai Kopi with him to eat along with Salam and Amir.

Guess what? By the time I reached home I'm dead beat!! (or dead beet whutever) Terus baring, tidor.. Mimpi MEREPEK gile!!!! @w@;; Guess this is what you get tidor time Maghrib. Woke up... tried to stand.. nak gi mandi. Bangun halfway jerk pastuh jatuh kelepuk pengsan balik.. Tidor balik... dunno what time aku sedar. Bangun paksa diri gak gi mandi.

Weird.. @wO;; My body rarely act this way. Kepala memang tak ingat berat gile!! argh!! Tido tak cukup?? Makan tak cukup?? =__='' *sigh* Tetibe teringat kat citer Mafia where he ate Lambchop and Kerang one day kat uptown pkul 2 pagi camtuh. Die pitam pastuh kepala rasa berat gile.. sedar-sedar die termuntah kat kawan die. XD XD XD

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Ariz didn't call nor sms me tonite.. guess he's tired..
sleep tite my dear!! ^^;

Dad gave a few spending money (in Singapore dollars) while we were in Singapore. He made a deal after we got home that he'd exchange the Singapore dollars he gave with Malaysian Ringgit at the rate exchange of 3.0. @wO;; Wowzahh!! Last time he exchanged it with us for 2.5, but I wasn't home during that time so I missed exchanging my balance of $50. Ceh.. Anyway, since the exchange rate is quite high this time, and I still have a few couple of Singapore dollars with me, I manage to get cash to finally buy myself a new sandal~~!! YAYYYY!!! MWAHAHAHAH!!!

Dah bertahun lamanye aku dok pakai sandal cikai yang beli kat Bata ngan reger RM19.90 je ni. Now's the time to finally pamper myself. (my feet, to be precise) Ngehehehhe... Actually, I wasn't all this picky/excited to pick my footwear but since I met Arizsan I'm beginning to go into Nike stuff. :3
He loves Nike. He looks goooooood in Nike... =)
Ari tuh curik pakai sandal Nike ACG die. Man, it feels so good!! Lembut~~ Jalan jauh ngan sandal tu pun x panas~! Cambest!!

So I decided to grab myself one when I have enough money.. which is like.. now? :3 Better buy sumthing useful before I go spending it towards sumthing stupid like, comics, again... XD I'll leave the comic buying to Hazu now since lately I'm not very much into reading comic. Unless I really have nuthing to do... ="=

Here's the few sandals I've been prowling my eyes on for the past few months... @wO *yummeyhh*

Nike Women Santiam III -Birch Orchid-


Nike Women Santiam III -Blue-


Nike Women Straprunner V


<sub>Nike Sunray Printed Sandals for Kids -Grey-


Nike Sunray Printed Sandals for Kids -Blue-</sub>

Personally, I kinda like Santiam III Birch Orchid, but if it's *ME* who's wearing it, it'd get dirty VERY quickly and keselekehan amat terserlah. Eheheheh... Like what happen to my white+blue sweater. @wO;; Ufufufuu... Guess I have to go for the greyish blue one instead. But really liked white though.. T^T Next fave pick would be Straprunner V.. but truthfully saying, I can't recall seeing that type sold in Malaysia... yet! *_* Hopefully it'd come... Looks really aero-dynamic!! \(>v<)/ Wonder if they have it in blue. =) Owh.. and my final pick would be that printed sandals for kids. yah.. kids!! I can wear kids shoes!! LUCKY MEYH~~~ KYAHAHAHAH!! *stabs self with knife* T__T usually if there's no adult size for me I have to go for kids size. *sob sob* Sedih jadik mini... That printed sandal would be nicer if the fabric isn't made out of just Lycra. *sigh* I like sandals that covers fully the whole top of the feet and letting put the fingers and heels exposed. My first fave sandal was POWER ape ntah nama model kasut tuh. It covers the whole top of my feet, got shoe-lace summore. (which looks kinda like the tie lace at the back of the corset, except it's more sportiesh lace) After 6 months wearing that sandal, tercabut. Ye la.. Brand POWER je. Nama je POWER. ehehhe.. Yang bestnye bile tengok kaki, mak aih.. cam pakai inai! jari gelap, kaki putih... wahahahah!!
kelaka! But it's really comfortable. Like wearing shoes, except it's has good air insulation. ;p Owh yah by the way, that camo prints on the sandals gives a +plus point! :3 Rawks!!! Can't decided between grey or blue... Grey looks nicer though, but that burning orange colour for the padding looks really disturbing. ="=

Plan to go buy it this Saturday... While going on an outing with Neechan and Arizsan. Prolly ajak muaz skali ntuk temankan Ariz if Kel can't make it. If Muaz wants to come... *drags him along* @wO;; Jum muaz!! We go gilakk!! Roti Pisang!! Eh, NANDO'S!! Uwahahaha!!

ok.. cut the crap.. really gonna go to sleep now. uuuHhHhh!! Esok kene bangun pagi... Studio calls... T__T
Ja mata neh~~~
*myuuuuutttt* <-- bunyik kentut Hikal

woked up this morning by an sms msg from Shezneechan saying that "Ayez! Shez cyg sama loo. wakakkaka! siryes!" *blinks blinks* Being all blur blur and half awaken, I replied her "Haik? Apekah... @wO Knape suddenly" Then she replied that I go and have a look at her blog. I smiled that morning. (tengah hari actually! Bangun pkul 1pm) Thanx to her, I woke up quite early. When I slept at 9am, I usually will woke up around 4pm or 5pm. (>w<)v *peace* Sedar awal, but takdek hati dan perasaan nak bangun. Ufufufufuu~~!!

After reading that sms, get out of bed... *crawls crawls*
Ape lagi, mandi la deyy~~ Takkan nak terus2 online. Mucuk~~! At least gosok gigi dlu. =) Alang-alang mandi trus. Lepas kuar dari bilik air, lapaq.. Went downstairs and found my youngest brother Hikalun munching on mom's curry!! W00t!! Dig in!! Makan sambil continue baca komik Pokemon Adventure. Gyahahah!! Baru masuk volume 4. Hazu borong komik tu kat Singapore sampai volume 8. He's drugging me with manga these days. @w@;; Nyehehehe... Oi girl! Got many other things to read laa.. Lalalalaaa~~ Buat tak dengar~ Malas malas~~

After makan, went online. Yay!!! Found Shez-neechan online but heck, she had to go out for lunch. tapi takpe, point utama nak tgk apekah kesah disebalik misteri sms pagi/tengah hari tadi. Too bad she said the entry doesn't show up and she had to rewrite it again... T___T Wuwuwuwuuu.... ahahahaha~~!! No sweat! Got other things to do anyway. *surf surf*

Malam tu baru dapat baca entry tu. She re-wrote it. =) PerghHh~~ Tangkap nangis seyh baca ape yang die tulis. ;__; Serious!! Was really touched!! Never knew I was being quite a help for her. Wuuwuwuwuuuuu........ *sedut air mata* X3 Suddenly I have the feeling of being accepted as what I am. *sigh* Sometimes people just hate the real me. Yah! Banyak kali gak kene sound ngan member about being so "direct" and "mulut lancang" kat orang. Just burst out my feelings terang-terang camtu jerk tanpa pikir sangat perasaan orang. Ouch! @wO *blinks blinks* But what da heck~!! I tried to be not so direct, but sikit-sikit still melekat lagi bad habit tuh. X3 Well at least now it's not as bad as it used to be. Some people kept reminding me. Yesh.. thanx so much!! Thanx for not hating me just like that and willing to help. Comminication is important!! Tak puas hati settle terus kat situ. Nak sorok-sorok buat taik pekasam jerk. Huhuhuu...
If you're not being frank with people,
how will people realize what's wrong with them.

Luv you tooo Shez-neechann~~~~~~~!!!!
Somehow after meeting you, I finally realise what's life is all about. All the advices on love and life you've been giving me, I really appreciate it coz it helps me from thinking so extreme and ended up hurting myself and others. Thank you for helping me think rationally! Thank you for sharing your life experiance and made me feel my life is not the only thing that sux. There's a lot of other people out there who's in a much worst condition that I am, so make use of it and be strong. I really like reading ur quotations and siggy. *rofl* Kengkadang tergelak sorang relating that siggy to those certain-certain people yang Shez tujukan indirectly. *puff* Imagine you conter-attacking them just like that! =)
You got guts! *respect*
Thanx yaaa, neechan!! You're the best sister who helps me in a lot of things. I never had a real sister to count on. Usually I'll just share out my problems with my mom... Sometimes you just need someone else to share it with. Thanx for coming into my life!!

*HUGSSSSSS*


aahh.. on the other hand.. Arizsan..
he didn't call tonight.. neither did he sms me...
busy i guess... *sigh*

esok die balik. malam. ^^
ingat nak jumpe die friday but it's not a good day to go outing since he has friday prayers. Tanak ar kacau.. Nak suruh Hazu antar gi section 9 petang lepas solat, nak jumpe die a few couple of hours to talk, but Hazu x leh antar. He has Gerak Gempur that afternoon. Dammit!! Wish my I didn't fail my driving test. Kalo tak dah bleyh bawak keter jumper die bebile masa.

Speaking about driving class.. Planned to retaking that stupid exam during this mid-sem break. But WHUTDAAAFUCKINGHELLL did the JPJ pick THIS TIME around to do gerakan operasi ape kejadah ntah!! Hari KHAMIS plak tuh!! HARI KHAMIS!! THE DAY MY DRIVING SCHOOL APPOINTED TO HAVE JPJ TEST!! GAHHHHHH!!!!!!! >w<
(*@()!#*)*)@
I'm beginning to DESPISE Metro Driving School... If only that stupid error about JPJ not receiving my Test Undang-Undang which delayed my test for a week, I might have retaken that test just in time. (budget time dah) *sigh*
Sesape yang tak dapat lesen lagi, JANGAN pergi Metro Driving School. Management celaru cam hape jerk. *piff piff*

ayez <-- marahkan nyamuk, kelambu dibakar.
yeah~ belajar BM bersama cik ayez~~!! XD HAHA!!

chau! nak tido... esok nak gi studio buat model. Mom dah bising dah asyik lepak kat umah tak buat kije. Erk, banyak plak nyamuk kat bilik computer nih.. tetibe jer banyak. =_=''

*BAKAR KELAMBU*

got bored... found this link at Eisu's livejournal.
made out a doll out of my self inpersonation.

^{you can make one yourself at eLouai}

will edit the BG and make it transparent later and put it at the side bar of my blogger. Ngeheheheheheheheheheeee........ will *paksa* arizsan to do one once he get back. =)

man, i'm dead beet.. (or izzit dead beat? ape-ape je laa..)
Helped Mooazsantanarobthomas (whutsup with the nick? XD) designed/edit/change his blogger layout. You can check out his blog to see the result. Not so nice though.. cam semak. Last-last tuh dah tak reti camner nak alter CSS coding ngan HTML coding tu. It's not me who designs the layout in the first place. I just changed the graphics and colour. DIV layer, table size, CSS code pekejadah haram tuh aku x reti nak alter sangat. ;__;

Took me around 6 1/2 hours to finish it.
MOOAZ!!! YOU OWE ME DUDE!!!
Roti pisang + milo ais se~~
Jumpe ko kat khalifah section 3 for breakfast one day... NGEHEHEHE~~~~! >:)



This time's mid sem break is like usual.. I'm wasting it by sleeping late, waking up late, procrastinating my work, hang around the house doing nothing but loafing. yah, the usual. And when school re-opens, the usual, panick sebab kije tak siap!! Mwahahaha!! Looking at Muaz being so hardworking bitching his ass off with books, and thinking of Hariz attending that BTN course during the hols makes me feel like a total SLOTH. @w@;; *sigh* Planned to go to studio yesterday morning, but due to the reason that not many people will come and I can't do my work without the help of my groupmates. (i need that siteplan!! Salam!! Nisha!! Fuad!! Adam!! Tina!! Qamey!! Paklah!!) That's what I get (or lose?) for skipping class on Thursday before the semester break. ;p Hahahaha!! Best!!
(tak rasa bersalah langsung)

Today's our 20th month anniversary. (can we call it anniversary? or it lunarversary? or moonniversary?? nyehh!!) He called me right when the clock strike 12 (we sync our handphone clock) but I was the one to wish him first! Yay!! Menang lagi!! (*^__^*)v 7/9.. Lucky number since 7 is my favourite number while 9 is his. Too bad he's not around to celebrate. ="= Deep deeeeppppppp down inside my heart, I cursed him for applying himself willingly to that BTN course. But rationally thinkin, I don't mind. It's for his own good. Sooner or later he still have to go.. If not in first semester, probabbly second and so forth.. Might as well he went early. ^^ I'm getting numb with feelings lately. @wO;; Part of me has no sign of emotion. I'm neither sad nor happy. (just feeling tired) I didn't call nor sms him the whole day today, for no reason. Just don't feel like doing so... The bad thing is, I sent and replied SMSs from others... But not him. Why? @wO;; Bukannyer ade sakit ati ke ape. Just really don't feel like doing so. Maybe...
Saje nak kasik die rindu kat aku lebih-lebih skek.. Ngehehehe.... *evil laugh*

Okay.. it's 7.30am...
nak tido.
chau!!

p/s: MUAZSANTAN!!! roti pisang!! Milo ais!! hahaha!! lagi best kalo bleyh dapat cheese nan ngan tandoori dari ko. *senyum selebar daun pisang* =)

^^; *swt*

I don't know how many times I have ended up being the third party to involve myself in other people's relationship. I can't even handle my own, why should I bother about others??


Coz they're my friends...??


I don't want to see them drifting apart from each other when I've known they were happy with each other before this... That's why I bumped into their life and try to work things back again.
*sigh*
penyibuk gak ek aku ni? @w@;; hahahaha!!


Mafia-senpai asked me to go out and have a drink + chat around with him last afternoon. Asked Hazu to send me to Giant section 13 and met him up at McD. We moved to the Food Court and grab some grubs. I ordered cendol (lame dah tak makan cendol... pergh! Nikmat) and he decided to go for sumthing light (yong tau fu) since he has eating disorder eversince his girlfriend decided to somehow end their relationship. He looks okay... But deep inside I know he's in agony. His blood pressure increases, have been suffocating from sleeping disorder, (typical architecture student, but his case seems to worsen) loses his intention to proceed with his work.. o_o;;
He seems to take things hard.

yah.. first love.

Waktu aku dalam perjalanan gi singapore malam jumaat tu, die sms aku pkul 4.30 pagi. (pagi sabtu) Pergh! Takleh tido mamat tu memikir panjang masalah die. That time awek die just mintak timeout. Aku balik-balik dari singapore je, dengar citer awek die trus decided nak break. Pagi semalam plak sms lagi ngan die tanya ape cerita. His intro was depressing... The things he wanted to say is depressing.. His outro is kinda disturbing. (celaka mafia cakap nak bunuh diri!!! nak kene makan penampar??) @w@;;;
I try to do my part just by being a listener to his feelings of frustration.

The sad thing was...

I had a chat with his girl earlier yesterday morning. (Pkul 5 pagi camtuh) Asked her what happened and why... Wanted to know more about the problem, but she seems a bit secretive. Die cakap "kalau aku bagitau ko pun mesti ko cakap kat Mafia".. So I guess she knows I'm trying to "korek" her true intention and let Mafia know and somehow work things back again by giving her advice. (Mafia yang suruh aku have this talk with her in the first place) Tatau la nak cakap camne awek die ni.. Aku kenal die pun tak sampai setahun. Jarang borak.. ^^; Just simple-simple "hi and goodbye" jer. Dunno her attitude. The conversation that morning somehow makes me realize that she's very decided about her decission, and i can't do anything about it. Dah set her mind dah!! Putih ialah Putih. Hitam ialah Hitam. Hitam takkan jadik Putih...
(unless kite taruk clorox bleach and clean it up. Hahah!! Harapan)
can't do a thing bout it...
I never was a good negotiator..
Always *blur* and out of words...



Lepas borak-borak ngan Mafia.. Went back home.
and suddenly I get the mooshy feeling that I'm missing my Arizsan...
Haven't talked to him for 4 days.. He doesn't seem to have the time to reply my sms. Coverage dekat kem BTN is quite sucky!!!

*sigh*

Haven't told him about the outing with Shez-neechan and her hubby Kel-niisan this Saturday.

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p/s: new layout~~ range murata's work! *w00t!!*

Ponteng kelas hari nih... MALAS!!!! ^^
Cuti Mid-Sem dah nak start~~ YEAHHH~~~!!! Start malam 2/9 sampai 11/9. WOOT~~!!! Malam 2/9 tuh bertolak gi Singapore. Ayah ajak gi sebab die nak bawak kuar duit dier. Aper lagi, alang-alang tuh holilayyy laaa~~~ MYAHAHAHAHAH!!!! *kepiakkk self* ="= Yoshhh!! Gi holilayy ngan family. ^^ Lama rasanyer tak spend time ngan family. Walaupun balik rumah agak slalu gak (dalam dua minggu skali) tapi slalunyer balik umah sebab nak gune internet ngan printer free. So jarang lepak ngan family... T__T Sedih.. Ni la masanye nak menibai buli my adiks-adiks!! ^^

The sad thing is.. Dah janji ngan Shez-neechan nak jumpe die weekend ni. Die nak belanja Secret Recipe~~~~~!!! XD XD XD Betul kan, Shez-neechan? Nyahaha!! Girls don't go back on their words!! *coff coff* Cucuk jantung sendiri.. ^^;;;; So sorry can't make it... Family tetibe jer plan nak gi Singapore. Tengah-tengah dinner celebrate birthday Sara semalam kat Friday's, tiba-tiba Ayah suggest gi Singapore. Sume pun setuju jerk~~ @w@;; Wuuu.. BUT DON'T WORRY!! Hopefully weekend 10/9, before school re-opens, (and hopefully you're not so busy by then, sis.. ;__;) kitak jumpak yaaa~~~~~!! Mau tengok wayang dengan yuu~~ mau berfoya-foya dengan yuu~~ mau gigit-gigit yuuu~~~ lepas tuh kalau ada masa, JOM ART JAM!!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

T_______T
Nak hugg yuu neechann!! *clings clings*

The past 3 weeks nih asyik teramatlah sangat terasa ke"sengkek"an tahap papa kedana. T__T Duit aderm tapi asyik gi makan luar.. Habis dalam RM30 skali makan. (mana taknye, gi Secret Recipe pastuh Sushi King pastuh Nando's) Bwahahha!! Pemboros!!
*w*
How do u control your spending money..... Miskin sangat nih.. Uhhhh...