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*blinks blinks*
Dun mind the title.. It's actually the current winamp file on my playlist. XD

HeEeEeCCCcCCCccccccKkkKKKKkkK!!!!!!!
I'm bored... +__=;;

Urmm.. My Final Review for my Basic Design is this Friday. Haven't started a damn thing for the mini presentation. ^_^; Typical me. Anyway, I'm going to my studio in 17 tomorrow for sum model snapshotz (what i mean by model here is my DESIGN model... ok?) It's for the story board and my portfolio... *sweat* Really not in the mood for Design-related stuff rite now. =_=; Haihz.....

Yep!! Today's the first day of Ramadhan, but unfortunately I can't fast today due to the reason of "illness". XD Yeah... the typical menstruation time again. WHYY??? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ON THE FIRST DAY OF FASTING???!!!!!! Haiyaa... =__=" I was kinda looking forward to fast during the month of Ramadhan, but heck!! The "illness" suddenly come to say "hello" to me... So today is the first day of Ramadhan and also the first day for my menstruation period this month. *ironic!*

I moved out from Akasia totally this morning and MANN what a hell loads of luggage did I brought back home. Mostly my books, my radion, my junk sketch books and sum design models. Good thing I brought back all my cltothes the week before. If not it would be rather tiring to be bringing SUCH LOAD home at once. =_="

So here I am back at home, for GOOD!!! Mwahahahaha!!
(untill the new semester starts around 28th of November)

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I went to pick "him" up yesterday. ^^ Glad to finally able to see him again!! I haven't met him for over a month!! We always see each at least once a month. Last time it was twice a week, that was when both of us haven't started college yet. But now we have to sacrifice things up for our studies. Yeah... sure... I missed him a lot, and it was such a relief to be able to see him again. But he does look tired and weary... Maybe because of the distant travel from Melaka. Or maybe he was just dead tired of his semester exam. ^^; He looks quite sick to me. I just hope he's fine. Though he kept telling me loads of time that he IS fine. But he doesn't look as fine. I'm quite worried... *_*

You know, I was being quite harsh to him for the past days. I don't know why I did it to him... Yesterday when he said he loves me, and he was expecting me to say I love him too (as usual), I bluntly told him "I am not sure if I love u..." This disappoints him. I've told him the same thing days before, on the phone, when I was actually about to let him go, and ask him to let me go, but he doesn't want it. Well, I think it's quite good of him to actually have spirit to keep this relationship still going. a few days after the conversation, I keep on thinking "HECK!! Why did I say that? I know I couldn't even live without him!! My life would be nothing,, He's the one who kept my spirits up." =_=;;; And yet, I dunno why I still kept telling him I dunno if I love him or not.. When the fact is, my soul needs him...

It's just sumtimes he pisses me off... well, slightly.............
not his fault entirely... it's me and my mood swings. poor dude, hav to cope with it. @_@

Actually, I am still not sure of my actual feelings.. I don't want to go on too serious in stuff, because I am insecure... really I am!! I don't know why... >__<;; He had always been so nice to me, so caring, so understanding, so patient!! What more do i need?? O_O I dunno.. I just dunno.. it's not that I hate him (and I seriously DON'T hate him), it's just I am not confident of loving him as much. I hate myself... I do. =_=;

fuck
i dunno what i am saying..

Bwehhh!!!!

Supposedly I am back at home after exam ends (which is yesterday), but sumhow Encik Wanzul's work is holding me back. I have to finish the A4 sketchbook of freehand sketches. Man, I haven't started a THING!!!! Thus I had to stay back in my hostel and finish it before I pack all my stuff and move out of the damn place. actually the dateline is yesterday, but as a usual lazy procrastinating student, I hand in late... today... that is... if he still accepts it. @__@;; If he doesn't then 30% of my marks will go Bye Bye~~~~~!!! TT^TT

Anyway, the thing is still not finished... but i am passing it up anyways. XD

Today is the day "He"' will be back to Shah Alam. Yay~!! I plan to pick him up in KL at the bus station, but I am not sure if I can make it coz I have an outing with my friends to catch the movies at MV. I just have to make it to both!!! Pick him up as well as watch the movies. XD XD XD Bwehehe... multi-tasker I am.. yes yess!!

I'm loafing at the Cyber now. Well, gtg catch breakfast and the bus to MV. Ja!!

Tomorrow's my final exam paper - ECONOMICS!! @__@;;
Yay.... ~_~

When that's over, I have to face my ARC125 Basic Design Final Review this coming October 20th. This is the time when the lecturers from the other side of the faculty (in Sri Iskandar Perak) come over to Shah Alam and check our works wether it is well graded or not. ^^; I am worried... Coz most of my projects are craps!! I'll get sum snapshotz of em and post em up on my site. Err.. soon.. XD

Speaking about site, I just checked out the site connection and it's working properly. If you want, u can check out my new site (not revamped yet!!!!!!)..
http://ayez.tragic-quill.net
I wanted to check it as soon as I got the FTP access from my friend, Xaph but my dreamweaver was disfunctioning. Some error in the ActiveX code or something. Dammit!! I re-install the software a couple of times to see if the ActiveX script is being uploaded again, but I don't know why, the thing still won't run properly. Thus, I bought myself a new Dreamweaver... Well, it looks as if it's working well. Hopefully it won't corrupt after a few days. @___@;; Owh, I also bought Flash MX... But I don't have the serial number. TOT The serial number they give with the CD is being used for the maximum time oredy. Waaaaaaaaaarrrghhhh!!!!!!!!!! *bangs head on keyboard* Y_Y I wanted to learn Flash sooo badly!!!

Actually my computer is infected by virus and have been disabbling most of my Microsoft Office and Macromedia programs... I can't even run MS Word without having to restart the damn PC. +_+; Thus, I am using notepad as an alternative media for typing. T^T *sob sob*

Yay~ tomorrow's last exam paper~~!! *luv luv*